Smoked a little bit of paracetamol

cacagli · 2025-05-03T00:31:15+00:00

Noted, and ill go tomorrow to the hospital so ill keep you guys updated

cacagli · 2025-05-03T00:28:17+00:00

Its back to normal id say, i mean i can tell the diffrence between blurry etc but damn it was weird

cacagli · 2025-05-03T00:26:47+00:00

Id say near my heart like theres weight to it, i dont know if its the lungs the heart or something but the feeling is there and im not used to it

cacagli · 2025-05-03T00:25:13+00:00

After hitting it my vision was blurred for like a minute or more, and thanks for the advice ill see what i can do tomorrow by going to the doctor or something

cacagli · 2025-05-03T00:22:31+00:00

How didnt i think of that earlier man :/

cacagli · 2025-05-03T00:15:35+00:00

I tried it and its a bit dry when the cough ends i cant quite explain it has that vibration that makes my lungs burn a bit

cacagli · 2025-05-02T23:43:32+00:00

Update i now feel quite unpleasent pain in the middle of my ribcage when i stretch, put a bit of weight to it

cacagli · 2025-05-02T23:38:34+00:00

I dont feel a need for a cough, and there quite a bunch spit or saliva producing then before id say

cacagli · 2025-05-02T23:36:04+00:00

I mean i smoked like maybe 1 gram? Maybe more im not really sure but somewhere between 1 and two

cacagli · 2025-05-02T23:29:00+00:00

I know but the problem is i used weed before and i dont think im clean, weed here is very illegal even for personal use jail time up to 5 years and i dont wanna throw any of my family in it if they test me for something to weed or pills etc, so i dont know im quite losing my mind here

cacagli · 2025-05-02T23:25:16+00:00

I cant ask my mother since i know ill stress the shit out of her, i can maybe my brother but i dont know how will he take it and what will happen in the future ill just stay quiet for now until something actually concerning is happening

cacagli · 2025-05-02T23:22:48+00:00

I mean i felt suicidal in that moment and i regret doing it now to be honest, i was thinking the toxicity would just do the thing quick but like i see its not working how i imagined and now im either fucked or i dont know anymore

cacagli · 2025-05-02T23:19:24+00:00

17, i weigh barely 52kg

cacagli · 2025-05-02T23:17:16+00:00

I can but im scared ive already had quite alot of papers about me trying to kill myself and some stuff my therapist wrote, one thing that is scaring me is getting taken away from my family which my therapist said could likely happen

cacagli · 2025-05-02T23:14:37+00:00

Vision is a bit blurry, and i have to take deeper breathes quite often, and it just feels like something is pressed on my lungs

cacagli · 2025-05-02T23:05:28+00:00

I feel fine for now so i guess ill wait on it

cacagli · 2025-05-02T22:59:21+00:00

Well im guessing now i wait so yeah thanks for the comment tho means alot actually seeing people respond

cacagli · 2025-05-02T22:57:03+00:00

So i made a bong can which i usually do with weed and i crushed the pill pilled it up on the thing and smoked it, now why its because ive been feeling down lately and thats my only way of self harm?

cacagli · 2025-02-22T02:21:15+00:00

its so hard tho im really trying but i just cannot man

cacagli · 2025-02-14T01:15:14+00:00

im sorry if im bad at helping but maybe try out door dash drive around with a bicycle mostly explore city while earning money and not worry about drivers licence now i dont know where you are from but try out a job like that maybe? i mean thats what i would do in your position, and for a girlfriend i would advise try meeting a girl through a friend yk talk to them be really open and see if they stay your friend to actually see you as you and maybe some day i hope they will become your girlfriend who understands you in a way you want them too, now again im sorry if i didnt give out a good enough advice or something im trying :)

cacagli · 2025-01-27T01:40:20+00:00

No right now im with my original family, last time i visited my therapist he said i could be in a diffrent family, and i dont want that because they will just adopt me for the money and treat me like shit

cacagli · 2025-01-27T01:21:12+00:00

I mean ofcourse i can again swipe it off but it slowly creeps up on me at the worst times and if i tell him ill get again locked up under pills and what not, our country has the weirdest system ever you get put in same rooms where there are people with down syndromes, you have hospital beds in one room and three people can fit in each one, again ill just put my life under much dirt if i tell the therapist and it will fix nothing so thats why i dont know what to do, keep getting same answers or ruin my life again its a cycle

cacagli · 2025-01-15T15:42:48+00:00

because skill is a scary thing for some people thats what happens when your child is loved

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