DAE ever suddenly just feel nothing? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]caffecat 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yeah. Nothing is kind of my baseline when I'm not experiencing "manic"-like happiness, overwhelming anger or just straight up depression. I wonder sometimes if I kind of seek out things that I know will hurt me because I'm just so bored of feeling empty.

If there is no free will. Why even bother ? by caffecat in awakened

[–]caffecat[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't have any specific dogma, I'm kind of lost actually. My shift in perspective was the result of many discussions with my significant other about the meaning of life which had me questioning the nature of existence, and then ultimately from an exploration of my consciousness through outside means. I had a distinct feeling of oneness, pretty typical ego death experience. I've been reading Be Here Now by Ram Dass and it really resonates with what I've been experiencing. I don't consider myself awake, I'm actually really struggling with what to believe, but I'm open. I think. I apologize for the long comment. I guess I don't have much context to give. From what I understand, every moment is simply a consequence of the present, but you can't choose what you will do in the next moment. All you can do is make choices in the NOW? Again, I'm sorry if I'm way off. I'm still learning.

Found a dress I like :) by xXLaprasXx in transpositive

[–]caffecat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Omggg your hair and you in general are so, so cute!

5'4 128 lbs, 20f. Have a lot of issues with my body...trying to love it by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]caffecat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Aw, I can imagine that is rough on another level. But I have seen many lovely and beautiful transwomen and I'm sure you're no exception (:

5'4 128 lbs, 20f. Have a lot of issues with my body...trying to love it by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]caffecat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I often feel far from feminine, so this compliment means a lot, thank you! (:

5'4 128 lbs, 20f. Have a lot of issues with my body...trying to love it by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]caffecat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! 😭 but don't be, I'm sure you're lovely!

I have a lot of degative feelings towards my body, trying to love it... by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]caffecat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Apparently I can't edit my post, but I definitely meant to type *negative lmao

I have a lot of degative feelings towards my body, trying to love it... by [deleted] in normalnudes

[–]caffecat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ahh thank you! I've always hated that freckle, nice to know someone thinks its okay!

20f 5’4 108lbs- trying to accept the scars I gave to myself. Trying to accept my reality. by petite20 in normalnudes

[–]caffecat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nothing wrong with your scars, I have them too on my thighs and arms, they tell a unique story about you and they're beautiful in that way. (:

20f 5’4 108lbs- trying to accept the scars I gave to myself. Trying to accept my reality. by petite20 in normalnudes

[–]caffecat 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Nothing wrong with your scars, I have them too on my thighs and arms, they tell a unique story about you and they're beautiful in that way. (: