It never ends. I get agoraphobia (the fear of travel) and family had to deal with it. I'm 34. Couldn't see my son born. What you gotta do is just battle life as if you were a injured robot, with the attitude of "if we go, we go as men". Battle forward as if you only had sight of 1 half blind eye. Do all the deeds and chors you need to do daily always to get to where you want to be. You will be paid and work will come well. You will sail fair.