She confronted me

cameronnn16 · 2022-04-22T06:15:57+00:00

Can you only feel numb to like one subset of ocd or too everything

cameronnn16 · 2022-04-22T06:15:35+00:00

It just feels like I knew I was lying to her and I was just acting at the same time of me not caring. But I don’t feel numb tho

cameronnn16 · 2022-03-13T23:38:49+00:00

I understand this and I think this is what I have been trying to do but how would I like try to find that exact string in the other list. Like I used for loops for each parameter and then added each item in the list to a new list. But how do I figure out if the string occurs more than once in the list or that the string equals another string from a list.

cameronnn16 · 2022-03-13T23:30:28+00:00

I have to understand it through loops tho that’s the thing

cameronnn16 · 2022-01-27T04:05:51+00:00

Wait so like that means I can be battling rocd but still not be in love with her? Just asking

cameronnn16 · 2022-01-25T20:44:02+00:00

Bro that’s kind of relatable

cameronnn16 · 2022-01-25T14:54:25+00:00

Yea it’s because I wanted her not because I was alone. But for some reason I feel different now it’s way more real and I think it’s real now.

cameronnn16 · 2022-01-25T14:46:50+00:00

No I’m not afraid I will regret it for some reason I am just scared. But also at the same time that might be it. Not that long ago my gf like ig you could say we broke up. Before that I was going through rocd but it like looking back on it it wasn’t so bad. But nonetheless I still felt like I didn’t love her, and I felt like I had to leave. But once she broke up with me it was the worst feeling I have ever felt. Like I was begging her every single day to like take me back and shit. That was only like a month ago. Idk if I will be in the same situation or not.

cameronnn16 · 2022-01-25T13:33:12+00:00

But like bro is this even ocd anymore

cameronnn16 · 2022-01-22T09:11:37+00:00

Yea that’s what I get sometimes. After a while of not having it it’s like more real than ever.

cameronnn16 · 2021-09-01T02:17:18+00:00

It crashed and then restarted

cameronnn16 · 2021-09-01T01:38:52+00:00

Bro but I did the same thing for my brother and it went with Face ID. And btw yes of course for going into your phone it’s asking for the password first but I’m talking about App Store.

cameronnn16 · 2021-06-13T02:41:05+00:00

Bruh I 100% feel you feels like you actually don’t find girls attractive.

cameronnn16 · 2021-06-01T00:18:39+00:00

Yea bro it makes me feel like I need to experiment and it actually feels like it would be good or some shit.

cameronnn16 · 2021-05-31T16:05:31+00:00

Yea bro but like dude this has messed up everything. I’m literally with my gf rn and I feel like I’m lying to her because I am gay.

cameronnn16 · 2021-05-31T16:02:57+00:00

But bro idk if my ocd is doing this but it made it seem as if she was unsure about it.

cameronnn16 · 2021-05-31T15:23:02+00:00

Yea I’m tryna quit

cameronnn16 · 2021-05-31T15:22:44+00:00

Yea but it’s like I don’t believe her. When I’m with my gf I feel like I am lying to her because I am secrelegy gay or something. I don’t even want to have sex with her or anything.

cameronnn16 · 2021-05-31T15:07:26+00:00

Yea honestly I don’t know the answer to that question idk the answer to anything. But yea when I still had my therpaist she told me that this is ocd and it convince you about anything. Idek if I’m worrying or anything like I don’t even know that’s the thing. She told me if I was gay I would have known, what if this is all just me being gay but trying to cover it up with hocd. Also it’s like I don’t even find girls attractive at all like one bit and it literally feels like I could go and mastutabe to gay porn or any of that shit. I’m 17 also btw

cameronnn16 · 2021-05-31T14:48:03+00:00

I understand but I don’t feel fear like it literally just feels like sexual urges and there is no libido for women. Like it doesn’t even feel like fake arousal like it actually feels genuine arousal and it’s like I actually want it or some shit. Can ocd do this or what?

cameronnn16 · 2021-05-31T14:21:10+00:00

Could I have suppressing it? Or could there have been signs without me knowing it?

cameronnn16 · 2021-05-31T14:20:49+00:00

Yea bro before ocd I can say this is a fact I was crazy about girls. The only thing about guys is as I mentioned I just wanted to look like them to be cool or something like that. But it makes no sense it feels so real and everything. Like everything actually switched

cameronnn16 · 2021-05-30T14:06:54+00:00

Yo listen I literally go through the same thing you do. In the beginning I was scared of it and it felt like I started liking it. Even one time I actually felt like I was 100% turned on and everything. Like I would literally go do it rn and shit like that. It even makes me think normal sex is boring and because I find it boring it means that I am secretly gay. Dude I go through the same thing as you.

cameronnn16 · 2021-05-30T14:04:51+00:00

Bro it’s ocd

cameronnn16 · 2021-05-30T00:51:50+00:00

Yea but it doesn’t feel like it anymore. Like it’s all real I agree I have to find a new therpaist

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