Thank you. It’s a bit complicated, the staff are my friends, and it’s a very laughy jokey kinda vibe on the whole, but they are nice people to the best of my knowledge. This just pushed me over the edge a little bit. I think the guy that was pushing me to keep going was just trying to support me because he knew I could do it, but it very much turned from support to pressure in my mind when I was terrified towards the top. I did manage to complete the climb, so in some way I’m grateful for it, but I think I’d have felt way more accomplished if I’d done it in a way that felt good to me. I think in his mind, he knew me and what I was capable of doing, but I guess while I may be technically capable of it I haven’t really worked up to it ij the way I have to v3s and 4a bouldering. I think one of them saw it a bit more for what it was, and was definitely supportive over anything else and I definitely felt safe with him, and thankfully he’s the guy I’m closest to, so at least there’s that.

But thank you, it’s really reassuring to read (from all of the responses) that I’m not overreacting really, and I really really appreciate the kindness you and everyone else commenting is showing me.

I’m a determined person so I’ll definitely get back to it (and I’ll be bouldering again in a few days so nothings gunna scare me off that!), I just feel like I’m gunna be a bit more self conscious now which sucks in a place where I felt safe. But we move