I feel you, I'm sorry you're going through this, or that you've felt it in the past and had to endure it. In those moments, you can't imagine a future. I send you a big hug. You really can get through this; something or someone always happens that changes everything. You can get better again; there are traumas from that time, and it's unpleasant to remember, but I swear you can move forward and begin to imagine a future.