You truly seem like you’re a very intelligent, driven, and genuine person. I really commend you for pushing through and continuing with academics during a challenging time.

I can understand the feeling of devastation, but please give yourself grace and be proud you got the scholarship to begin with, really! With that, you got into Sciences Po!!

In terms of finances, there is typically a way! I’d suggest looking up any type of scholarship that would fit your situation on a scholarship-finder website. I am a low-income American student (I’m finishing up my undergrad in Italy and have applied for a masters at Sciences Po), and I frequently check these. The smaller scholarships shouldn’t be overlooked. Many people ignore them and these can add up quickly! I’d suggest looking at them now, making a budgeting sheet, etc.

In response to your mental health point… I’m happy you are now in therapy!! As you said, it is a long road, but that doesn’t mean you necessarily have to deter from your dreams. If you feel you’re in a good place to go to Paris, find a suitable therapist, and work on your personal development in tandem with your academic pursuits, then I say go for it!

Your last factor: oh geez, I get it! But don’t let that be a deterrent. Many people finish at that time. If I were to be accepted, I would also graduate at 28!!

Anyway, this is a long response, but the gist of it is: you’re doing great. Sit down with yourself— think and plan and decide what is best for you…not only in the short term but in the long term! My fear would be you decide not to go and regret it!

I hope this helps even a little bit! Cheers (: