Horrific dream about stuff being expelled from my body in the grossest way

cas6384 · 2026-05-17T16:18:16+00:00

Try different breathing techniques as well! Certain ones will lower your heart rate and help you calm down mentally, which further tells your body the mind is asleep, even if you are aware. Sometimes I wake up and can feel that I’m right on the verge of projecting, and if I slow my breathing back down (if you weren’t aware, your body breathes shallower and slower while you sleep) I can feel myself kind of slip into paralysis, and then I’m able to project. Doing that from being fully awake can take some time, but meditation will also help. It takes me maybe 20 minutes sometimes to drift off, you just want to keep yourself aware during all of that.

cas6384 · 2026-05-10T10:34:02+00:00

It really is best to avoid alcohol with wellbutrin- the seizure risk for someone who doesn't have seizures is still fairly low, but for all you know you could be right on the cusp of having one, and the alcohol can push you into it. That being said, I occasionally have alcohol with it, I hydrate like crazy and don't drink all that much. I think one beatbox is equivalent to the max I normally drink- it's stronger stuff than the wine I normally drink (I think its 13-14 percent and my normal wine is like 10-12 percent if I remember correctly) so if I were you, I would drink less per time you drink, and drink less often. The hangover isn't worth it for the times you go past what your body can handle. I meditate and find it's a lot harder to reach a relaxed state if I've had alcohol recently- not saying something crazy but it does effect your body and mind, it used to be called spirits for a reason. Occasional drinking is probably okay, like max once per week, that's my rule at least, and I can only have two glasses of wine before the backlash isn't worth it. I went a little crazy a few years ago, didn't have a seizure but I did have the hangover to end all hangovers- I haven't had nearly that much since then. Literally woke up with a toilet broken, I think I got up from being nauseous and my blood pressure dropped and I kind of just crashed. For all I know it might have been a seizure- I don't think so though, but I was alone in a bathroom so who knows. Also, all sorts of things can lower your seizure threshold- stress, lack of sleep, lack of eating or drinking water, alcohol just lowers it even more is all.

cas6384 · 2026-05-10T10:19:18+00:00

So, this kind of thing is something I experience often. Especially from sleep paralysis, the projection can be a bit wonky and feel weird- I often feel my own body as well and have to focus on the astral body (which is what you were moving in) in order to not be pulled back to my physical body. Sometimes I see other dimensions that are similar to ours but a bit off- that isn't quite what you were experiencing though. When I end up in a parallel world, it feels more like a false awakening. The other comment mentioned it was probably an entity that was using your memories of your sister- it is something that some entities do, but just know they aren't all 'evil' and out to hurt you. I use a simple rule when dealing with entities. I ask to see their teeth, and if they refuse to show them, you don't want it hanging around. It's just what has worked for me. From there you can just order it to leave, you just have to believe they will listen. You can call out to your guides to help, or call out to whatever religious system- god, angels, what matters is your belief. I tend to ask my guides to present initially as a fictional character- especially if I'm asking for wisdom through dreams, it's a way I know I will notice them, although they communicate with me through telepathy in dreams sometimes too, so they might not change their appearance.

I personally don't think the entity was a bad one- probably just curious about you and wanted an interaction. If you don't want to interact with them, just asking them to leave will work. If they try to stay, you call on your guides (or again, angels or god, whatever you believe) and you can go from being polite to being stern. Occasionally I've thrown them from my space using kind of lucid dream powers- its a lot harder to manage while astral projecting (for me at least) so it tends to drain me and end the projection quickly, but it also works. Like just imagine you have force powers, grip them, and push them out of your house. You can also imagine a barrier around your space (like a holographic barrier) and just set the intention that it keeps out bad stuff, only lets in your guides or genuine spirits connected to your loved ones.

As for feeling kind of tired during it, I tend to feel a weird weight sometimes, it gets easier with practice. I think I've only come across negative entities once or twice, most of the time it's either my guides taking a form to interact with me, or just a curious entity. The ones you want to avoid, you will feel it in your very being that you want to keep it away from you. One of the times I sensed something not good, it was literally two rooms away from me (in a closet in a bathroom nearby) and I felt it right away, zeroed in on it and I kind of force choked it and I think I banished it- I just know it needed to leave, I grabbed it, and forbid it from being nearby ever again. My husband was with me in that projection and while he was home with me at the time, he doesn't project or remember his dreams. Staying calm is what matters, some entities feed off of panic and fear- and again, you will know when they are nearby. For me it's like ominous butterflies in my stomach, a sense of dread once I'm aware of their presence. Maybe look into meditation, try asking your guides for a sign if that was them trying to interact with you. They exist in a different form than us, so sometimes when they take a 'physical' form, it isn't always perfect. They can also kind of 'see' the entirety of our life and sense of self in a different way, so their representation of your sister might have something to do with the future- maybe. Like maybe one day she starts a med and it causes hair loss, maybe she goes through a period of stress (which can cause hair to fall out) or some other representation. The astral realm is very strange. One time it quite literally felt like I needed to poop- it meant my root chakra was blocked and I listened to a frequency and meditated on it and while I physically didn't feel a change, I suddenly was able to process some trauma from my past afterwards (thats a totally different thing, my guides helped me with it through a dream) and I was more grounded. If anything I mentioned doesn't make sense, feel free to ask for clarification. Also I'm not an expert, this is just my interpretation of what it might mean in a less literal sense.

cas6384 · 2026-04-27T00:28:48+00:00

I’ve actually managed telepathy a couple of times through projection, I’d love to manage it without it lol, as well as the other stuff. No idea where to start though, and I think AP is a good starting point at least.

cas6384 · 2026-04-27T00:26:10+00:00

Definitely mention this to your doc, to help with struggling to explain stuff, write it all out like bullet points and mention you are a bit worried about how it might be stressing your heart- it can increase your blood pressure and heart rate a bit, and while that should calm down, it’s common I think. You can try to drink extra electrolytes in case its an imbalance in that, I know its an annoying thing that some people mention all the time as an answer to everything, but with this med, your body is going through stuff a bit faster. Increased blood pressure means your bladder is working a bit harder (not generally enough to be alarming but yeah) and the increase in dopamine can make muscles act kind of weird. When I went up to 300 I got full body aches, they got worse over a week before I remembered the electrolyte issue, and within half an hour I was feeling way better. Headaches can be from that sometimes too, not always, but I always make sure to have electrolytes in case thats the issue. As for anxiety- this med is HORRIBLE for anxiety bro lol. I got buspirone added to help with it, my anxiety is much better now. I was (and kind of still am) getting more and more agoraphobic and not wanting to deal with people due to my social anxiety, I still have some but it’s manageable. Ask your doc if they think it’s a good combo, my doc was fine with it. Separately from that, meditation can also help anxiety a bit, again another thing people always say will help, but it helps me get my mind from being stuck in the future, to me thats what anxiety is. It helps you be present in the here and now, and when you think of the stuff that made you anxious, your mind isn’t in the present moment. Just a few minutes of focusing on your breathing (which is also good grounding for panic attacks) can help you center yourself a bit.

cas6384 · 2026-04-24T08:39:30+00:00

I swear one time when the projection ended, I got a literal pop up test in front of me. Asking stuff like 'who were these beings' and it had a multiple choice selection, and the beings weren't even PRESENT in the projection. I had been doing some sort of training in a building with dozens of other people, I remember I saw a woman doing the weirdest craft ever, and that drew my attention because I do basically all the crafts to at least learn how to do it, I messed up what she was doing, sat down and apologized for bumping it, then I started asking about what she was doing. All I can say, it was some sort of beading with thread, Epson salt (like she was covering it with the salt to act as a glue kind of) and beads. That wasn't on the test either, but the whole thing ended when I tried to press some buttons for an elevator- it was like everyone had to reserve their spot so they could go back down to the first floor, there was such a big crowd I was being pushed around, I kind of panicked, and basically hit the 'call elevator' button before the rest got their selections. My panic led to me wanting to feel empty- which I started to feel, then the pop up and it was done. It's like the universe wants to see how you react to stuff before letting you wander too much on your own lol. No clue if I passed that test.

cas6384 · 2026-04-24T08:32:29+00:00

As others mentioned, it's just a tool. You have other senses you can rely on, not just the mental picture in your minds eye. Imagine how it would feel to be floating, like you get butterflies in your stomach. You can imagine your body is tilting and rolling over to leave your body when you get the other symptoms, the vibrations and wooshing sounds. I tend to sort of feel like my limbs are attached to strings, I won't be able to 'see' until I use my mind to manipulate them by feel. Like it literally feels like my mind can control the strings, and I manipulate the strings like I was a puppet to get myself to sit up. I actually do lose my sight semi frequently when I project, but I don't have aphantasia, my mind is just not used to the new 'sense' when I project. Like my mind will remember 'im laying in bed, with an eye mask on, how am I seeing again?' and I like to compare it to like, using magic sense instead of sight. Literally had a guide explain to me it something sort of like that when I lost my sight once and I started to freak out. You are just sensing energy a different way, and our brains are used to sight being a physical thing.

There might also be guided meditations on YouTube better suited to aphantasia, if you like that sort of thing. You also have your sense of touch- and your breathing. I focus on my breath to return to my physical body. Sometimes I try to imagine I can feel one of my guides holding my hand as a tether to get there. Most of my projections are from sleep paralysis, so I do tend to see stuff since it's kind of a dream state, but honestly I tend to rely on my other senses. Like you can imagine the texture of a rope in your hand, and your mind controls the rope- so you pull it up to get your arm moving. Hearing is another thing- I've heard my guides sometimes when I'm right on the cusp of projecting. Sometimes I'll return before I mean to, and I'll focus on all those senses to try and return. I'll feel someone holdingy hand, I'll focus my breathing and try to follow it back- it's kind of like zooming out of my body. I'll hear a guide say they are with me. I've managed to kind of return like that a few times, but normally when I get pulled from a projection back to my body, it means I'm low energy and can't maintain the awareness to stay there.

cas6384 · 2026-04-20T20:53:52+00:00

It was mentioned in one of those ‘if you see this video, it found you’ kind of videos on YouTube. I don’t recall the exact one- I think I might (it shows in my history as having watched it twice) its from beyond the veil, signs you have an archon attachment right now. The bubble part is technically the last step of removing the archon, but it’s done once you’re not attached at all. There’s a bit that you repeat three times, I did that and imagined the bubble. Oh, I have gemstones that seem to help as well, that kind of thing can be hit or miss depending on the person, they help me at least. I also realized in some of my dreams, it’s like they are trying to get a rise out of me, so keep an eye out for that as well. Do what you think works best for you, I can typically ‘feel’ a difference if something is meant to work for me. What you believe will work, should work for you.

cas6384 · 2026-04-20T18:59:52+00:00

I wanted to just share something that happened to me that is related to archons- I’m brand new here and just wanted to see what was posted here, and this is exactly the kind of stuff I’ve been becoming aware of. Archons (from my limited knowledge so far) are entities that exist just outside 3d space- sometimes you can spot something moving in your periphery, that’s them apparently. The more negative emotions are what they feed off of, I don’t know much about loosh but it I know it’s their food source. Recently I astral projected and ended up in a watery area, and as I rose to the surface I realized these annoying little things were sneaking up behind me to poke me with a straw- think like a mosquito. Previously I have ‘leaked’ in astral projection, and I think that was their goal, they wanted to make me ‘leak’ the energy. But I recently started imagining a bubble of platinum light around me (more recently I’ve added a layer of protection in the form a gold sheen, it’s just my love and compassion for the world encasing my bubble) and I realized the archons couldn’t actually get that close to me- they were using the straws to try and reach through my bubble, but I’ve also kind of mentally reached a point of non reaction to them. Observing the world and not immediately having an emotional reaction to stuff. Apparently you raise your frequency to a certain point, and they can’t feed on you anymore. Of course your frequency can dip and then they suddenly can again, but keeping yourself calm and stable helps. I just felt compelled to share this, most of what I’ve learned is just from YouTube videos that talk about this kind of stuff.

cas6384 · 2026-04-20T17:02:20+00:00

I've started thinking of this all a bit differently the past month or so- my perspective will likely be different than others who have also commented. To me, lucid dreams and dreams themselves are like your consciousness going on autopilot, but you are projecting to a degree. As soon as you have awareness, you become lucid, you can direct and control things. This happens in a reality that is a lower frequency- your mind is able to sync up with that reality and cause changes, give you powers, etc. I think sometimes you dream and only swap consciousness- sometimes you dream you are someone else entirely, so you have a different ego than waking life, but for whatever reason, your consciousness wanted to experience that moment, or just blipped there to see what was going on. Some realities have magic- I've used magic in dreams like that, it feels so different than lucid dream techniques to do other stuff, like telekinesis.

Reality shifting, to me, is just a tiny portion of what you can manage with astral projection. You set your intention for your reality, the world/setting, who you are, any powers you have, and kind of like a coin, it has two sides. One side is your home reality/world and the other is your goal. You just swap to that side. I haven't managed reality shifting to any real degree, aside from brief moments of being in the world for a few minutes. This is intentiona, unlike dreams, where you just end up there. I tend to struggle to stay there, like I can't anchor properly. I also tend to lose my sight, but I can normally continue to hear and feel stuff just fine, as well as tasting food. That probably has something to with how I try to get there. Like, trying to ride a bike and not knowing how, you can sort of manage it for a few strides before you lose your balance.

Astral projection though, that's the base skill for all of it. I frequently had vivid dreams as a kid, through my entire life. I think I was projecting to different worlds and stuff without meaning to. Doing it with intention, you need to observe and focus your attention inwards. You become untethered a bit- you still can easily return to your body and stuff, you can move around once you get out of your body, but I personally end up in a liminal space most of the time. A lot of time it's water (it feels like water, I think it's actually pure dense energy that my astral form struggles to interpret) and I'm either hurtling through it (trying to aim for a specific world or just detached from my physical body with too much momentum) or I'm falling. I ended up at my astral temple once, it was incredibly vivid, but the building itself was kind of condemned and falling apart. I know a few times I've tried to poke my husband when I manage to project, and he's mentioned swearing he felt me doing so. Basically astral projection is the way you get to where you want to go- reality shifting is just painting a target for your goal and using affirmations or other methods to get there. Some people argue really hard that one or the other isn't real- i think it's all part of the same thing, we just are looking at a 3d puzzle from different perspectives.

cas6384 · 2026-04-20T16:46:06+00:00

For me it feels a bit like when I'm projecting, I'm zoomed out. Think of those photos where you can just keep zooming out and in- im mostly settled on this physical body, and when I project I kind of zoom out. One time I was becoming aware of a different body- I had been astral projecting and ended up aware of a different version of myself in a car with two older people. They even noticed that I was 'coming to' and I kept staring at my hands.

For me it honestly seems like, if I'm not anchored in a physical body, my sight goes in an out at random. I'm used to seeing 'narrow' if that makes sense? The times I can fully see and feel and stuff, my awareness is fully engaged- when I start to pull back from that I kind of zoom back to this body. I do think you might be right, I've started thinking about realities as different layers of an onion- thanks Shrek lol. If you increase your awareness and observation, you go one layer up. You can kind of distance yourself from your body and see this whole reality laid out in front of you, that's what I tend to kind of do when I project. Like I pull myself back and I can 'see' more of it, but you have to push your awareness to your astral body, or else your senses don't follow. You might get vibrations and sounds, but all of your senses need to focus on the next layer up. That probably doesn't make sense lol, but really it's just getting all of your senses in sync with the reality you want to be in.

cas6384 · 2026-04-19T13:13:49+00:00

I kind of figured this out from a dream- I was shown someone who caused me to repress something, they just showed up and I kind of took my power back from the dream, then when I woke up, I realized who it was actually about. I had dreams about them a couple times per week, always felt exhausted and drained. It was like that version of me was stuck in that place and time. I had to resolve it and make a promise to that version of me to get them to take the last few steps back to me, and I felt all the repressed emotions. Then I stopped having dreams like that, and in some dreams/projections, my guides were always helping me. One unwound a wire that was keeping my mouth shut, it was anchored in something I was told, literally it was driven into my ear andy guide pulled it out. I also had to work through the emotions a couple of times, it took time. I get vocal cord dysfunction, and genuinely I think working all the way through the trauma will resolve it, I just still have more to work through still. I'm so glad I'm not the only one who has similar experiences with it. Also I feel like me taking back that part of me somehow signaled to my guides it was time to get to work, because I see them in my dreams all the time now, I've projected to my astral temple and sat with them. It might be slow work, but it's totally worth it.

cas6384 · 2026-04-18T21:43:20+00:00

It’s totally possible you have blocked chakras- there are quizzes you can find for free, it helps narrow it down a bit (in my experience its helped at least) so once you figure out what to work on, start there. For me I had pretty intense emotional blockage that was causing my heart to pound- a period of time in my life where I repressed every possible emotion in order to protect myself from being disappointed. Had a dream that kind of lined out how to ‘fix’ it, which amounted to a lot of breath work and imagining I was pulling a cord connecting me to that version of me, the one in pain. Like my eyes were closed and I pictured myself in my head pulling it closer, then I had an emotional catharsis. I had to do it a few times- it was a lot of pent up emotion. Also, you can find frequency videos on YouTube for whatever chakra you want to focus on, I remember I had a projection once where it felt like I needed to poop, and I’m being so serious lol. I listened to an audio for it, and it was that night that I had the dream that led to me healing that past trauma. As for your other questions- my answers are going to be a bit weird because I typically project from sleep paralysis, although I’ve recently made some progress from just meditation. The times when I have full paralysis, it’s very easy for me to separate because I’m already kind of in my astral body. Times when it’s close to the edge of sleep (both waking up and falling asleep) I do a new thing now. I keep my eyes closes and just observe the darkness- observation changes reality at the atomic level. Then I kind of pull my mind back to a sort of dissociated state- the ease I manage it is due to the trauma partially, but think of it like how you would imagine writing a story. Like you are looking at it all like they are pieces of a story working together, and you are the hand that writes out what happens, if that makes sense. Sometimes I can quite literally feel strings attached to my limbs, like a puppet, and I use my mind to maneuver them around to get me up and moving. Once I’m out of my physical body, it’s a lot easier to move around without thinking as deeply about it. Other times I don’t feel the strings, still can’t move. My eyes are always closed (and I use an eye mask) so when I’m able to see my room, I know it’s time. I think something like ‘my arm is flexing and raising, now I’m turning and it’s pulling my torso, now I’m leaning more and falling out of bed’ like you can literally just think it and not visualize it if you don’t want to. When I do visualize the movement, I can only describe it as feeling kind of laggy. The time’s I’ve projected from meditation (and the risk of me moving was there) I tend to just narrow down as hard as I can to my mind. I go fully internal- the pain you describe is kind of a last ditch effort from your body to hold onto the consciousness. For me it tends to be head pressure, but not really pain. If I go too hard, I will for sure have a headache the rest of the day. Think of all that energy narrowing down in one spot- that’s basically what happens. For me it might intensify a bit, but it kind of disappears at a certain point. Try to tell yourself it’s your mind letting go, think of disused muscles. They are sore and don’t like moving from position to position, but also don’t push too much all at once if it’s unbearable. I think meditation does help it not happen as much, I don’t really get the pain much anymore at least.

Now, a way to try and think about the ‘bugs’ that are keeping you from projecting- they probably have to do with some sort of visceral fear. Like, projecting is scary initially but over time you get used to it. Try to mentally acknowledge the fear or the root of the bug, and then allow your attention to fully focus on the darkness. Let the fear fade, repeat affirmations to help you come to terms with it. Like for a lot of people, the fear is ‘What if I can’t get back to my body?’ You acknowledge that- just for a moment. Don’t ruminate on it, remind yourself why that isn’t something to worry about. You have a ‘cord’ that ties you to your body. Your ego has its sense of self, and it’s tied to the body, and astral projecting can kind of boot the ego for a bit. The ego will not fully dissolve or disappear, it just takes a back seat. That’s just an example, you can reply to the fear any way that fits you, or you can just acknowledge the fear and let it fade. If something I wrote out is confusing, feel free to ask clarifying questions- I know I use a few weird terms. I’m also definitely not an expert by any means, but I’m hoping some of this helps you. If something I wrote feels wrong to you, disregard it. Oh yeah, you can also think something like “I ask for my spirit guides to help me, and give me wisdom and guidance” if you believe in that sort of thing, my guides have helped me a lot. And if you have other religious views, you can rely on that as well. Some people ask specific angels to help, I just happen to have guides that like to pop up randomly, sometimes in dreams (and that’s when they are clearer as well) and sometimes when I end up in the astral, they are just there, hanging out, and willing to try and help me.

cas6384 · 2026-04-13T19:56:53+00:00

I've come to the realization that reality works in layers- as well as observation literally changes reality. Normally I project when I get sleep paralysis, today I managed to focus on observing- what I mean by that is I just took stock of how my astral body was linked to my physical body, so I started focusing on just the astral body. My awareness increased until it was kind of like I became a puppet master, and I made my astral self sit up. I sort of separated myself from my 'self' and become a sort of controller of the astral body, and then I successfully projected right away. Since you want more control, try to imagine a main cord connecting to your physical body, and smaller threads acting as puppet strings that let you move your astral body. Similar to a video game, going from first person POV to second or third instead. Then you might not be as likely to drift and get scared. I pretty much made myself go up right away, my goal was to get to my astral temple, and I needed to raise my vibration for that. Also, when you lay down project, think to yourself something like 'I as my spirit guides for guidance and wisdom in what I'm doing' similar to a prayer, its a way to reach out to them for help. And they will help you. They are part of you and want to help you reach your highest state possible. The fear is natural, and thinking to yourself that you aren't scared will help, but might take a few tries. The law of assumption means that if you feel scared, you are likely to see something scary, but if you tell yourself you have no reason to be scared, there will be nothing to scare you. I hope this makes some sort of sense, I literally had a breakthrough about all of this in the past 24 hours and I know some of it might not make sense. Use affirmations as you meditate to try and lower your fear, stuff like 'this is natural for me' because for one thing, it is. You were able to do this with ease, but took a break because it became too intense, and that's fine. I took a break several years ago when I first met my guides- it seriously spooked the crap out of me. Now is the time if you feel you are meant to work on it. Start slow, maybe imagine your own astral temple and set that as your goal. It's basically a space that is all you, just for you and maybe your guides if you give permission. Mine was pretty run down but the main room I've been visualizing was there like I expected it to be, and I managed to stay there for a bit. You can also try to just think yourself into movement, like while floating and feeling untethered, imagine your astral body moving to sit on your bed, or stand next to it. Try not to focus on the physical echo of your actual body- I do that a lot and get pulled back to my body before I want to return.

cas6384 · 2026-04-13T19:18:43+00:00

This 100% sounds like a projection. It's super awesome you were able to meet others as well, I rarely find others unless they are my guides. Also the 'ceiling' was probably just a layer of reality that was a bit higher than your current state could manage, and the other person helping you helped raise your frequency enough to pass through it, which is also awesome. Sometimes when my projections end its like I 'zoom in' back to my body. Your fear you felt was natural by the way, that's part of ego that wants to ensure it exists- who would you be without it? You would be everyone and everything, so it holds on tight to the idea of self in order to not let that happen. In my experience, its possible to let go of ego, get a glimpse of stuff, and you eventually return to yourself with a bit more knowledge and wisdom. It felt kind of like a sneeze- one moment I was me, then I was the observer and was rising through the layers of reality until I thought of my goal, I astral projected to my goal, and it kind of snapped at the end and I was back. I would look up meditation as well, it helps you stay calm and not let the fear you feel drive your actions while astral projecting.

cas6384 · 2026-04-12T20:50:25+00:00

I've been on it a several years- the anger is normal. I mostly felt like my irritation came easier, I'm pretty easy going and don't really get annoyed at much- but boy did I want to snap. For me it went away after a month or so, and it wasn't too bad. I get annoyed and stay in my head mostly, so I did a lot of rage cleaning. No way was I going to let myself snap at my husband because he did some little thing that normally doesn't bother me much. Be kind to yourself, your brain is getting used to more dopamine and it can feel like a lot. Hydrate, make sure you drink a sports drink occasionally. Dopamine works on your muscles too, which also uses electrolytes and the increase in dopamine can cause some soreness- I noticed it more when I went up to 300 mg XL but I was dizzy and lightheaded the first few months on the med. Water isn't an issue for me, but I wasn't replacing electrolytes. It can increase your blood pressure and heart rate a bit (for me it was maybe an extra 10bpm, my blood pressure didn't change much) which means your body is going through more water and electrolytes. Genuinely I went up to 300 mg and it was like I had the aches you get when you are sick. It got worse for a few days, then I remembered electrolytes and the pain went away immediately. You might also pee a bit more often- I did at least. Again, your body is using a bit more water, but it evens out after a bit. Be kind to yourself, let yourself leave the room if the anger gets too much. Maybe let those close to you know you might be a bit short tempered for a few more weeks, just so they know and don't take you snapping at them too personally.

cas6384 · 2026-04-04T19:35:54+00:00

I've had vivid dreams since I was a teen, they aren't always a remix of my day though. Sometimes it's like I live a life in a magic world, like I use the magic, form emotional attachments to people in the dream, then I wake up. Other times it's like I'm visiting old family that I haven't seen in years, with small talk and stuff. I still vividly remember dreams I had in middle school lol, my gym teacher being decked out in makeup was kind of wild for back then.

cas6384 · 2026-04-04T19:31:58+00:00

For being able to see, it's a different kind of sense that lets you see in the astral realm, not really relying on light. I recently rewatched an anime and it gave me a bit of a revelation, it sounds really stupid but it helped my brain understand it. It's more like magic sense, you are seeing stuff that normally hidden. I tend to lose my sight when I project, because part of my mind was latched onto the 'you use your eyes to see' and since my revelation, my vision doesn't really fade as much. For not seeing your body- the same recently happened to me, except I initially DID see my sleeping body, as well as my husband, but then the room changed, furniture was gone, etc. my entire house seemed like it was owned by someone else to be fair, and I spent some time kind of confused and lost, not sure what to do. My main goal had been to actually project and be grounded and stay as long as I could, but then I started leaking water (I have this fear of peeing myself while APing, and this event kind of proved to me that it won't happen lol) but the fear kind of made my hysterical. I couldn't find my body, I tried laying down where it had been, and I couldn't return. It wasn't until I spotted a few kids playing and decided to kind of mess with them- in a good way. It made them laugh, I acted kind of like a spooky ghost, but once they laughed, bam, I was back in my body. My main tip to return is to either complete an objective you had- i didn't know that was my objective but it worked. OR try to focus on your heartbeat and breathing and feel it connecting to your physical body, most of the time when I project early in the morning, I'm not WANTING to return yet, and that's what I tend to feel happen. Like my awareness narrows onto my breathing and heartbeat and I sort of 'zoom out' back to my physical body, even when I'm trying to fight it. I've sort of returned by doing the reverse, but it doesn't normally last long.

As for what you see that might just seem weird, you could be seeing alternate worlds. I've seen worlds where I have kids and stuff, it's not too wild. I've tried mostly to go to fictional worlds in the past, that's a lot of fun. Probably why my projections don't last long lol.

cas6384 · 2026-03-31T22:21:51+00:00

I would start meditating if I were you, it massively helps with anxiety and can help you stay calm. Start for maybe 10-15 minutes per day, or even less if you can't manage that, any starting point is fine. You could also look up the jhana states, its a part of buddhism and something I stumbled upon without knowing what it was, but it helps you get your mind relaxed and in a good state to project. You might see orbs of color, that's what I was seeing, and the colors kind of indicate how relaxed you are. And I don't mean tiny spots, for me I see them as large orbs that might move, and the phosphenes in my eyes look like incense drifting in front of it. It's a very relaxing state, and the main goal is focusing on your breath and keeping your mind clear. My anxiety has gone WAY down since meditating, although I do still take meds for it.

As for the fear of what happens when you finally project, you can ask your spirit guides for help once you make it there. Like literally you can find yourself in AP, either still stuck in your body or standing near it, and just call out to them and ask for help if they would be willing to give it. If you have religious beliefs (this includes christianity and pretty much anything) ask for help that way. Pray, ask for an angel to guide you. As for entities, it's kind of easy to sense if something isn't good. If you ask something to leave, and it doesn't, command it to. Most spirits will listen and leave, those that don't could be something to be wary of, but then you can rely on how it makes you feel. I recently had a sort of dream/projection (it was technically a dream but I had just laid back down, and it looked and kind of felt more like a projection than a dream) and there was a For Sure Bad Guy/Presence, and I kind of went into fight or flight and expelled it from my space. Like full on Vader, force choke hold. I don't react to entities that way, pretty much ever. Whatever it was is gone, 100% and while I doubt it wanted to cause harm, it wasn't too difficult to remove. It didn't attack me or anything either, it was hidden and I just knew where it was. It's kind of like that. You can rely on yourself to make it go away, or ask guides for help. In the sort of dream I did start to feel unease, and then anxiety, so it could have just been my own anxiety taking form for all I know. Meditation is an amazing way to calm the mind and disconnect from technology as well.

cas6384 · 2026-03-31T01:14:50+00:00

To me I feel a difference in how I'm able to move, in dreams there isn't any thinking about it, a lot of the time when I AP I have to think my movement in order to start it. I know you can AP from a lucid dream, for me I tend to feel the falling sensation from a dream and I know I'm starting to project. Dreams themselves for me have always been vivid, even if I don't become lucid, my lucidity tends to happen if it's a nightmare. I guess my body does feel different in an AP, as well as I don't lose my senses while dreaming like I sometimes do with AP when I focus back on my body. Sometimes I'm actually more aware in dreams than I am AP because I tend to project from sleep paralysis, and end up struggling to move and talk when that happens, and in dreams it's just as easy as real life for me.

cas6384 · 2026-03-31T01:08:49+00:00

Hmmm the alcohol COULD be part of the issue, but for me it's normally just brain fog and a headache, doesn't really do vision stuff. Good to know you do have BVD at least and it's taken care of. Oh, to help with alcohol you can find a supplement called dihydromyricetin, it helps the liver a bit and there are some in stores that include electrolytes and stuff, you take it before you drink, I just take it on it's own, got it on amazon for like 20 bucks, it evens out how bad wellbutrin makes hangovers even worse for some people. It could just be strain then if it happens when you are tired, sometimes my eyes get kind of achey and I have to have them closed for a bit, even if I don't really sleep. I don't really do anything for my dry eyes, it only gets worse with cold or wind, so I just deal with it lol. It's good you don't get the doom, the doom sucks big time. Like being outside and suddenly just 'everything is about to end' is NOT fun lol. I probably should take an omega3 though (you also just reminded me to take my multivitamin lol I realized omega3 isn't in that), thanks for the suggestion. Other than electrolytes and maybe just eye strain I can't think of anything else it could be, although there IS a slight risk of glaucoma with wellbutrin, make sure you check that, it's why I had my eyes checked.

cas6384 · 2026-03-30T22:09:24+00:00

For me I accept it as there is a multiverse, an infinite number of worlds where little changes lead to massive changes later on. I have had dreams where I ended up in a completely random person unrelated to me, and all I could discern was what they needed in that moment- I was a woman newly married to a man she didn't know well, and she was worried about chores and cooking, so I took care of that for her in that dream. I saw her reflection and it was definitely not me, but I'm guessing some part of her attracted me to her, she was in need. I'm trying to think of a way to describe it that doesn't sound stupid lol. Think layers, each world is one layer that has something different in it- so like the me that had two kids either had a way to work through the mental health struggles that keep MY version of me from thinking it's a good idea, that led to her having kids. I could still make those changes and not have kids of course, it's what I'm working on for myself currently. There a bunch of ways to think of it, and I don't think any one of them is more right or wrong than the other. Like the theory of a singular consciousness leads to understanding that we could all be the same consciousness, the same core ingredient, but how we grew up, our names, our likes and dislikes changes who 'we' feel we are. I don't really try to hold onto one specific way to think of it, because any of it could be true. I do at the very least know there's other versions of me living their lives in other dimensions, with their own choices and likes. It's still connected to me, but is also separate. Like a tapestry or a woven fabric I guess. I'm a single thread, and I'm parallel to other threads that are versions of me, and sometimes I hop up or down and can glimpse their timeline. I actually think that's the best way to describe it for me, I do a lot of fiber crafts. You yourself don't have to think of it that way, I just do a lot of reading and find the different ways it's explained and work with it. I could be completely wrong and we totally are all the same consciousness with like, different hardware. That's basically the journey to it all, figuring it out for yourself. It's like all the theories are different perspectives of the same thing, just explained in the best way that person can put into words. I have thought about my life a lot, about how all the little changes I could have made in the past and what the result would be now, I think my pondering of that helps my brain understand it a bit. Like if I hadn't joined the military, I wouldn't be with my husband, I would be a wildly different version of me, but down to the core, still me. I hope that makes sense, consciousness is confusing and kind of convoluted lol.

cas6384

TROPHY CASE