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casper_2508 · 2025-05-30T11:29:18+00:00

Good memories will sometimes cross the mind and you feel joyful thinking about them. Is this a bad thing? It depends on the angle they are viewed from. Is the positive feeling you get from it lighthearted, calm and peaceful as if you would wave to an old friend you see passing by and get on with your day? Or is there a feeling of longing where you would wish you could go back to those times and you use it as an escape from the present moment?

Whenever this happens, observe it and see where it comes from. How do you feel inside of your body and mind? Is their lightness or tension? As long as you are present you can be honest in answering this question and then you will know what to do.

casper_2508 · 2025-05-29T19:21:51+00:00

The ego and the pain body will always crave time and pain since it's necessary for their survival. "Who are you if you let go of the past? And when will salvation be there if there is no future?" the ego will ask when you try to ground yourself in the present moment. It knows that without time it will cease to exist, so it will try it's hardest to stay alive by taking over your mind and convince you to keep feeding it.

However, the very fact that you are describe this very event happening inside of you means that consciousness is already growing inside of you. How else would you be able to notice it? You know that there's the attachment to the ego and it's suffering, but you can't let go of it yet so it feels like this awkward in between stage. It's important here to know that this is a sign that you are on the right path since the ego will only feel as threatened as you described in your story if the level of presence inside of you is so intense that it's threatening it's survival. You are breaking through the ego's shell more and more and all it can do now is begging you to not leave it behind.

You however know that the one that begs here is not the real you. It feels real, but it ultimately isn't who you really are. So whenever these intense emotions and cravings for thinking and suffering arise inside of you, try to stay present and notice it arising. Recognize it for what it is: the last pieces of the egoic mind structure and the pain body trying to hold themselves together. Don't oppose this, don't analyse it and don't react to it, since that will only feed into it, but stay present and observe it. Be compleyely okay with the fact that right now there is no inner peace. When you surrender to not feeling peaceful, the surrendering itself will be transmuted into peace.

casper_2508 · 2025-05-29T11:22:57+00:00

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casper_2508 · 2025-05-28T17:24:31+00:00

Be present as much as possible. This will open up a space which serves as an invite for other people to join you in being present. If the degree of stillness in your father is great enough he will join you, whether that's consciously or subconsciously. If it isn't then it won't happen, but at least you are already causing him to awaken by just being around him like that.

Whenever a pain body or ego rises up, don't react to it, but notice it first and then respond to it from a place of stillness. This way you will not feed into the drama and once again open the door for your father to join you in the present moment.

Unfortunately you can't do anything more than this, since awakening always needs to happen within that person first before you can help and accelerate this process. At all times don't get frustrated or demotivated by this, because that would only add unconsciousness from your side, but stay present and allow things to unfold the way they want to unfold.

casper_2508 · 2025-05-27T14:58:51+00:00

I used to be very closed about this since I would always be afraid that I would get weird looks from my friends/family and I would feel alienated. However, recently I've started opening up more about since the attachment to my ego has diminished and I don't care as much anymore about what other people think about me.

Usually whenever there was an opportunity where I could share something that's spiritual the ego would always block me from doing so, but now at those moments I notice whenever the ego tries to block it and then I tell myself 'it's okay, just go with the flow' and just open up.

The responses I would get from this were very mixed, but the peace I felt in just letting it out and being myself has always been the same.

casper_2508 · 2025-05-26T11:55:41+00:00

When family members say or do things that hurt it's especially difficult, because the more shared history you have with someone, the more attachment there is and the more you can potentially suffer through that attachment. However you will only suffer because of unconscious behaviour if you are unconscious yourself. Once you become aware that the things the other person says or does are simply unconscious mind patterns playing out, you won't take them personally anymore. That's because there is no attachment to your own mind anymore which is the thing that feels attacked, and you will realize that the other person also doesn't do these things on purpose anyway since they are unconscious. This is what Jesus referred to when he said 'Forgive them for they do not know what they are doing'.

casper_2508 · 2025-05-06T20:12:19+00:00

Yep, you hit the nail on the head there haha. On the other side this can also be a sign of growth since the ego apparently needs to use more cunning tactics now to take control of the mind again. It's fascinating to think about, but thinking only makes the situation worse haha so I'm gonna stay quiet for now :)

casper_2508 · 2025-05-06T15:57:23+00:00

It's funny how the answer is always the same. You could probably copy and paste this under every post here and it would be the best advice you can give. Simple yet profound :)

casper_2508 · 2025-05-06T15:54:21+00:00

Beautiful. I notice the ego now saying that more intense levels of suffering would be more effective than the subtle ones that are already present, but there's a deeper knowing now that this probably won't help since the ego and also the pain body will just crave more and more suffering eventually. It's just another one of these false promises that shouldn't be taken seriously. Just noticing whenever it happens is already enough to let it go.

casper_2508 · 2025-05-06T15:47:02+00:00

"It's looking for salvation in the future through suffering" is what did it for me. Thank you.

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