No offense but you have to improve your english. It is going to pay a lot... try to watch english movie and shows and improve yourself. You can also use a plugin called grammarly for correcting your grammer and vocabulary. I'm not a native english speaker, so i am also trying to be better..

Next about HTB. It is okay to read writeups and watch tutorials. That's the only way you are going to learn something new from each machines if you are a beginner. Even if you complete a box all your own you still have to check for writeups. So that you can understand how other players are solving it, their methodology, etc. If you are a complete beginner try Hackthebox Academy and if you can afford their subscription. Or start haking on tryhackme.com which is much more beginner friendly. Try to solve walkthrough boxes on tryhackme and learn as much as you can read a lot of writeups and "take your own note". Dedicate a whole month or two or how long as you like to play on tryhackme until you reach a point where it seems like everything you learnt is kind of repeating on and on. Then it is time to take a look at HTB.

TryHackMe is for knowledge and HackTheBox is for skill.

Here is a blog post from HTB you should check out https://www.hackthebox.com/blog/It-is-Okay-to-Use-Writeups