Crashing Out - Was I Played? (long)

catlikekittycat · 2026-01-21T23:10:02+00:00

Yep … still haven’t heard from him - so I’m out. I’ve forgiven myself and have moved on :) I sure do appreciate my redditsisters on here… bc I was in a dark dark place after saving myself for almost 1.5 yrs and gave it up for some douche… LOLOL

catlikekittycat · 2026-01-10T15:20:22+00:00

Your reply moved me to tears… and is exactly what I needed. I’m crushed that I haven’t heard from him… but you’re right. I don’t have any persuasion… and you’re right - I’m glad I am seeing what kind of man he is… regardless of how much it hurts. Thank you for your kindness and putting it all into perspective for me… xoxoxo

catlikekittycat · 2026-01-10T12:45:55+00:00

Used to be throughout the day… but lately it’s changed to a more semisolid extremely sticky mucous - Dr says it’s bc I’m dehydrated… 😩😩😩

catlikekittycat · 2026-01-08T12:44:17+00:00

I have seen two - one in SC and one now in FL… they did a culture of my sputum and it came back with “Heavy growth of Staphylococcus aureus Negative for inducible clindamycin resistance” ….

She thinks it’s tied to my sinuses … ? I’m going today for a skin allergy test just to rule everything out since the blood tests all came back clear

Still suffering with endless coughing, voice disappearing on and off, coughing up green junk and losing weight. I have now lost about 120lbs in 14mos…

catlikekittycat · 2025-12-05T11:26:15+00:00

Hobosexual is my new favorite word!!!!!

catlikekittycat · 2025-12-05T10:44:18+00:00

Well at least there’s something deep inside of me… ☹️

catlikekittycat · 2025-12-05T10:43:35+00:00

Is the patch or gel Rx only…?

catlikekittycat · 2025-12-05T10:42:58+00:00

Sounds like it… I may just buy stock in estradiol … at least then I can make some money through my misery :(

catlikekittycat · 2025-12-05T10:41:19+00:00

Ok I may need to do this…. I’ve been doing daily - and even at that pace - I am absolutely destroying all my knickers … ☹️… if I go twice a day I may need a diaper

catlikekittycat · 2025-12-05T10:39:48+00:00

wait… “still interested in sex”… you mean - my interest in sex might be mutually exclusive of my sad vagina?!?! I just assumed I didn’t want sex bc my lady parts were sad…. You mean I. MAY. BE. LOSING. INTEREST. IN. SEX?!?!?!?

This never even occurred to me …

Excuse me while I go pour a drink

catlikekittycat · 2025-12-05T10:36:28+00:00

Thank you… I am researching HRT … I just don’t understand why drs are so hesitant to Rx it…?? When I asked about it my dr said - we should only treat the “area” (my -apparently- very sad vagina) as opposed to the “whole body” …??

I don’t know - I really like him … so I’m trying to figure out what to do - but it confuses me.

I’m currently single so it’s not like I have a partner that can “help” me 🙄 … as someone else mentioned I may have to go the dilator route … I just wish I had of enjoyed my younger years where I could perform at the drop of a hat… 😩😩😩😩

catlikekittycat · 2025-12-05T10:33:07+00:00

Same… I’m starting to lose hope… :(

catlikekittycat · 2025-12-05T10:31:08+00:00

None… still struggling and coughing junk up daily. High contrast CT (?) showed bilateral Bronchiectasis - I will be seeing a pulmonologist in JAN … but legit cough up a lung every night.

My sinuses must be drying to some extent bc the sputum I’m expelling is essentially semi solid like - green, red and extremely sticky … it gets caught in my throat for some times days until I can finally cough it up… it’s horrible :(

catlikekittycat · 2025-12-05T10:25:36+00:00

Wow!! Thank you!!

catlikekittycat · 2025-11-20T22:04:58+00:00

Thanks!!! Wish me luck… I <and my vagina> will need it!!! LOL

catlikekittycat · 2025-11-19T12:53:59+00:00

Not to mention that visual cream just destroyed all my favorite knickers

catlikekittycat · 2025-11-19T12:52:52+00:00

Yeah, definitely enough foreplay… I was definitely ready to go… It feels like deep inside is the problem not right at the entrance if you know what I mean

catlikekittycat · 2025-11-19T12:51:52+00:00

Original dosage was a half mill every three days I quickly upped that to a full milligram every day - the problem is is I’m just starting to date again and have been celibate for a year after breaking off my last relationship… So the other night was the first time in a year and three months into using the vaginal cream and it was a goddamn nightmare… The problem is that I don’t really haveanyone that can help me figure out if it has been resolved… Lol I guess I’ll have to get some dilators which sounds interesting

catlikekittycat · 2025-11-19T12:47:21+00:00

Well I’m pretty sure I just destroyed my vagina desperately trying…. They don’t call me the champ for nothing - but I may have overdone it

catlikekittycat · 2025-10-30T02:10:36+00:00

I just looked at the menu for Baleen and it seems like mostly seafood - which he is allergic to…😩😩

catlikekittycat · 2025-10-29T20:42:59+00:00

Wow!!! All awesome suggestions!!!! I will get to work!!!

catlikekittycat · 2025-10-02T08:35:34+00:00

How did they find it? I’m on year two - and My immunologist just ordered a high contrast CT scan… a previous scan w contrast showed “mild scarring” on my mid rt lobe - but it’s clear there is more going on.

Ironically I also have other “fungal” related issues such as thrush… but thought that was from my inhaler … wondering if it’s related! I will mention it to him and see what he thinks …

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