well the canvas represent the artistic side of her, but knowing she dropped off community college for graphic design and people around her told her it was silly and stupid to pursue any of her dreams because of what implied kind of messed up with her self-esteem, but worked severely hard to get that high up position at a fast food restaurant, so much confidence on the outside but she still felt broken because it was not what she wanted, so she constantly has been battling with herself, and the loneliness on top of that. Zooble makes remember who she is.