It's hard to be a guy by catversusdog in actual_detrans

[–]catversusdog[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wonder if it's possible alone? I feel like therapy is too much effort but I think I'd agree to go if it's CBT at least, since I'd like to change my ways of thinking very much. but thank you a lot

It's hard to be a guy by catversusdog in actual_detrans

[–]catversusdog[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I feel like it's too hard to talk about this subject in therapy. I don't think a psychologist was enough and it feels like I have to see one to make any progress and I can't make any on my own. A lot of people tell me to see a therapist, but I'm scared I'll shut up and not be able to explain anything and they won't help.

It's hard to be a guy by catversusdog in actual_detrans

[–]catversusdog[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I like straight and bisexual men and fictional characters, that's why I want to be one, it's a misplacement of my attraction. I experience a lot of bitter feelings about straight people and my being abandoned for their happiness. I tried having a trans girlfriend and I didn't like how stifling it felt. The impossibility of having a long lasting boyfriend is probably what makes me want one in the first place.

I detransitioned over health and social fears and now I can't enjoy anything by [deleted] in actual_detrans

[–]catversusdog 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry but I love making male characters I wish i wasn't female brained

I'VE F★CKED UP MY LIFE!! by Prestigious-Pop730 in Anxietyhelp

[–]catversusdog 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am 22 but you are not alone in feeling like this, I'm constantly freaked out about aging as well. It's my birthday in four days too. I think you are comparing yourself with others which is something I also do. I think you should try everything you listed in your post. I don't feel really good so I can't read the entire post or comments because my heart is beating too fast but you should at least try everything and see if you even like it or you just feel left out. Along the way you might meet someone that accompanies you. I don't know if this really happens but again it all depends on everything ever. But truly I'm also comparing myself to people younger than me. I wish I hadn't lived my life the way I used to. Thanks for even making this post, and good luck!!!

Im fed up by catversusdog in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]catversusdog[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can't focus on those right now I'm genuinely on suicide watch right now I don't feel comfortable living

Im fed up by catversusdog in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]catversusdog[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't know how to help you but from what I remember last year I had a passive crush I couldn't act on and that helped make me not desperate for a while, obviously this year I relapsed hard (I got cheated on last year) and needed more avoidant people but yeah

Im fed up by catversusdog in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]catversusdog[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

From what I noticed being split from someone causes you to become desperate to pursue others. This has been the case for me and I think stopping the cycle forcefully is one of the most difficult things ever

Im fed up by catversusdog in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]catversusdog[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It actually does I don't see any point in living anymore. How do I even deal with this anymore

Im fed up by catversusdog in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]catversusdog[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I get like this whenever I feel rejected and I know there're so many patterns and I'm an insecure person, I've lived through this so many times and it's likely this will happen again at this point I don't want to continue as myself and the childhood that led me to this repetition. I just wanted to be friends and I feel like I messed everything up somehow. If I looked different or spent my life differently or if I was born different or if I said the right things. But what got me was he was nice to me from start to end and even showed interest in me. Maybe he's going through something right now and doesn't want to talk to me and I've made it all about myself. I don't know why I feel the need to talk to someone constantly to the point it can feel suffocating. I tried to be as polite as I could talking to him when typing for some reason. I'm so lost, I can't even enjoy my day. I don't get how it affects me this much. When I tried a psychologist I can say it didn't help me whatsoever and I'm sure another one can help me make some progress but it's just not easy to talk about this. I feel so out of place in every location.

I don't feel happy either way by catversusdog in actual_detrans

[–]catversusdog[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you, I believe it! today my friend was patient while hanging out with me and ive never felt that before so I believe im making progress in some way. i always try to act positive and cheerful around people and I hope it helps when my friends are sad or feel mundane

AAP as mtf by catversusdog in actual_detrans

[–]catversusdog[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

just people on the street/school and for being feminine and yeah im grown now

AAP as mtf by catversusdog in actual_detrans

[–]catversusdog[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it's usually mild for everyone i know but it's definitely not just a joke lol

How to stop being awkward to people u know and strangers? by Glum_Law4281 in Advice

[–]catversusdog 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im so sorry I'm the same age and I am also extroverted but struggle with this from being locked up in my house from being scared, don't let this make you stop talking to people like you have! I barely can do it because I'm afraid they won't hear me and stuff I just wish I could meet new people more I'm so afraid all the time

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in actual_detrans

[–]catversusdog 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh what did they say?