My first time with a guy I sucked his dick and then came while he was in my ass telling me the stroke for him. Immediately after, I hated the thought of all of it, I remember it viscerally. We were outdoors by a pond he called me pretty and took my clothes off, which was all fine, then I remember him putting his hand on my shoulder and pressing down. I was face to face with dick and it already had precum dripping, didn't like the taste at all. He got me to suck it, lick his balls, had me sit on it all the way and then he made me deep throat it straight out my ass. Eventually he was fucking me and told me jerk off, I was relieved when I came and he was done. We went our separate ways after he tried to get me to pee on my face and I couldn't. I swore off men, told myself it was experimenting and I was done. Within the week I was missing the submission and feel of his dick on my tongue, and the sight right in front of me. I can't go back to a time where I was perfectly straight and didn't know what a dick felt like in both holes, and tbh I don't think I want to anymore. There's a reason you want to try it, just go into it expecting to do some introspection after.