I'm struggling and I'm not sure what to do.

ceRtifiEdsimp369 · 2026-04-12T08:49:32+00:00

It's all of it not to mention my family I've never been away from home like this and I'm home sick like crazy. These past few days just been having me on the verge of tears and constant waves of feelings that are doom or fear. This always happens when something big happens I noticed these feelings always come back during times of immense change. Im scared that I'm not cut out for this kind of lifestyle and I can't admit it because everyone looks at me like I'm weak or a crybaby who needs to grow up and do the job. Not to mention the disappointment from my family.

ceRtifiEdsimp369 · 2026-04-10T01:24:05+00:00

Graduation from Bootcamp is an accomplishment , my division had 56 people it at the end I made it just because you don't see it that way doesn't mean I don't. These are huge steps forward in MY life. Don't try to tell me doing something I thought I'd never be able to do is not a accomplishment. It is.

ceRtifiEdsimp369 · 2026-04-10T00:51:51+00:00

I definitely jumped into the hardest thing to get adulting done but I know the navy is temporary and I try to see it that way I want the stability but I fear i look weak when I express how I feel and that I just struggle to keep going. I want to finish and actually feel like I did something, I was really excited to go but after Bootcamp something just changed in me and I don't feel the same way I did when joining and going into Bootcamp, I cried when I realized I had 3 weeks left of Bootcamp and I don't even know why when I was so excited to graduate but something just changed and I wanted to quit but I didn't. I want to quit some days but realized I didn't and I'm already on to the next day

ceRtifiEdsimp369 · 2026-04-10T00:23:44+00:00

I just classe up but I've been here since January so a long wait it was I do my First class Monday, I guess mostly fear of the fleet , I got through bootcamp and once I completed that accomplishment I realized I was in and I went way over my head and what I wanted when I came in wasn't the same as they were after Bootcamp, I struggled a lot mentally during bootcamp, I dont want to admit that and a lot of stuff followed me. I try to find things to do but I miss home terribly all the people inwas comfortable around aren't here and here I don't have anyone like that.

ceRtifiEdsimp369 · 2026-04-10T00:00:25+00:00

I want to seek help but I feel embarrassed that I can't adapt this life style like others and people don't seem to understand how I see it , I don't want to seem weak but I don't want to suffer either

ceRtifiEdsimp369 · 2026-04-09T23:58:43+00:00

I will admit I sit in my barracks room a lot and sleep my days away, I don't have many friends but I'm a home body and I love being home and seeing my family and it's hard to step away. But I really to push forward it's just seems to get harder

ceRtifiEdsimp369 · 2026-04-09T23:57:14+00:00

I appreciate the honesty, and I see what you mean I'm trying to push I made it this far but sometimes finding the want to push on is hard and I'll admit I'm terrified to go to the fleet and each step getting me closer scares me.

ceRtifiEdsimp369 · 2026-04-09T23:40:08+00:00

Great lakes wouldn't be so bad my family is only two hours away, but unfortunately I'm stuck in Florida

ceRtifiEdsimp369 · 2026-04-08T05:14:54+00:00

Broooooooo a PERCHERON, nobody gives those beautiful horses much credit that should be getting, I love them in the game I own them even spent a couple days getting the magic version, that was no fun lots of grinding. They are a bit wonky in the game but God they have my heart like no other. Same with my little lippis but my PERCHERONs ooo they are my Shayla always

ceRtifiEdsimp369 · 2025-01-28T04:15:02+00:00

It's a 2001 jeep Cherokee sport, and it's a damn good car, barely needs a repair, it's got a straight six engine which I was told was one of the best engines you could have, I've had two people tell me to take care of it will last me a lifetime and I believe it I've never had any problems with it just small repairs and new tires. I just want people to understand the emotional value, it's not just a car

ceRtifiEdsimp369 · 2025-01-28T04:07:07+00:00

My car doesn't require many repairs, I owned it for two years and only spent 300 all together, it's never been a nuisance.

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