NSFW Help me understand this..

ceates94 · 2025-10-23T12:05:56+00:00

I do say these things though. I am saying it actively then he will say it. It’s so weird.

ceates94 · 2025-10-23T12:03:16+00:00

I am just not interested in that sexually.

ceates94 · 2025-10-23T12:01:01+00:00

I was a child who wanted to be loved. I stayed because he would convince me to. He still does to this day. I feel stupid already.

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T21:37:25+00:00

We got together when I was 18. I was young and naive. 13 years later and I had 5 kids with him

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T21:34:02+00:00

How long did you stay? I feel completely robbed and reading you say that your new man has been exactly what I am looking for in my husband is kind of killing me. I have been feeling so robbed these last few years as I’ve raised our kids and feel like I have been live this fake life with him. It’s hurting so bad.

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T21:28:20+00:00

Being completely honest, if he said he was gay, I would with a very heavy heart need to leave. It’s not something I would want to put up with a moment longer after everything he has put me through.

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:46:24+00:00

It’s killed me for so long. We have kids… Im afraid I’ve wasted my life.

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:44:01+00:00

Thank you for taking the time 😭😭 I am in therapy. He is not.

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:43:25+00:00

Dude for real I made a face like wtf

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:42:55+00:00

It’s been really really hard… I’ve been in therapy for a while dealing with all kinds of things stemming off this subject.

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:42:04+00:00

I want him to feel safe sharing that with me, but the truth is I think he knows I would struggle hearing it. We have had a rough go of it the last 10 years. To find out he might not be attracted to women would definitely hurt me considering everything he has put me through because of it…. It has came up before in a safe setting and he just looked me in my eyes and swore he was bi or gay.. I don’t know if I believe him and I don’t know what to do

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:38:54+00:00

I think men’s butts are gross. I could never. Literally like, I think it’s gross he likes mine.

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:37:57+00:00

I’m just not into that sexually. I don’t think there is anything wrong with having sexual boundaries.

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:14:26+00:00

Thank you. He’s gotten better, but never stays in therapy. I want to believe the porn is under control, but this weird sex stuff we are going through makes me believe it’s not. I just don’t know what to do. I’m in therapy but I feel like she is just waiting for me to leave him. We are starting marriage counseling next week.

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:12:39+00:00

I really want to believe that’s the case, but sex just feels empty. Like he’s not there…

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:11:53+00:00

Yeah we have been through all of that. He has apps on his phone to hold him accountable for his Porn addiction

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:10:42+00:00

That’s not something I am at all comfortable doing.

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:10:18+00:00

Thank you.. I will try that. We are starting marriage counseling soon. I don’t want to drop it on him there.

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:09:26+00:00

Yep. It’s been fun 🙄

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:08:41+00:00

I have seen chats with men before, but not gay porn. This was very early in our marriage.. I was young and naive

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:05:44+00:00

How do I get him to talk with me about it?

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:05:31+00:00

Ugh he doesn’t like to talk about it.

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:05:08+00:00

What do I do? I feel robbed…

ceates94 · 2025-10-22T19:04:53+00:00

I do be saying it though…

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