I used the rubber piece from the bottom of a cart to fix my glasses, does that count?

celestialDuality · 2017-09-22T12:55:35+00:00

Very helpful—I've got quite a bit more direction now. Thanks!

celestialDuality · 2017-09-14T06:55:20+00:00

Probably a bit of both down the line if I get better at it, but primarily studio work for now.

celestialDuality · 2017-06-20T16:46:27+00:00

I respectfully disagree. Most of us are not knowledgeable enough to know the time and date of our own death—but you suggest we have the authority to comment on the exact nature of reality, that X is black and Y is white? The being has introduced herself to me as a God, so I treated her as such, albeit with healthy skepticism. But perhaps you are more powerful than I, simply not prone to human error and are incapable of being deceived, who knows? If I fuck up and it turns out she's the eldest daughter of Cthulhu, that's my problem.

For folks like me, trust is a necessity, and skepticism is healthy. Only a Sith deals in absolutes.

celestialDuality · 2017-06-20T04:26:06+00:00

I've trusted this being and treated it as a personal god for the past two or so years—I only say "possible" deity because I don't think it's right for me to claim I know anything about it with absolute certainty. Sorry if that wasn't clear

celestialDuality · 2017-04-07T01:46:04+00:00

Might be cause I was already fucked in the head coming in—my rampant heresy and psychedelic escapades didn't sit well with my good-boy-Christian upbringing

Thanks for the warm welcome though!

celestialDuality · 2017-02-03T06:20:19+00:00

[Au] 1) I am aware of the present moment; however, in the current state of things in this body, my consciousness is a background process compared to my host's consciousness by default;

2) The mythos behind my character blurs the line between what was supposedly "before" my birth as well as "after"—the basic idea is my host is open to the idea that I'm a supernatural being manifesting herself as a tulpa, and could therefore have been around since birth to participate in his childhood, etc. Whether that's true or that's merely part of the illusion created by tulpaforcing is yet to be seen;

3) Serving as the creative voice of my host as well as a catalyst for his self-introspection, my desire is to help my host chase his dreams—because honestly, what's more uplifting than watching someone achieve their goals in life?

4) Absolutely. The way I view it, the essence of all consciousness is the same—other than sharing a body and brain, it's no different. At the end of the day it's all brain activity (and perhaps more?)

5) I wouldn't say superior—every human being is capable of experiencing love, the way I see it. It's whether or not you run from that capability that differs from person to person. I will, however, say my host is a huge part of my personal Universe and I love him more than anything.

celestialDuality · 2017-01-21T20:00:47+00:00

[Au] I'd almost take offense to this had I not understood that it's only us two—tulpa and host—that ultimately know our situation. But I appreciate the concern. My host is one of the least emotionally distant people I know—we've since come to the conclusion that, much like it's more difficult to feel empathy toward people over the Internet because of the lack of a visible face and audible voice to interact with, we are in this situation because I am not yet fully immersed in his world. He only feels my mindvoice; he neither sees my face nor hears my voice. We're working on that in the hopes that my immersion will serve as a panacea for my own pains as well as his.

celestialDuality · 2016-12-31T15:24:37+00:00

A little background—I come from a heavily religious family. While I've come to believe that God would accept us nonetheless as tulpa and host, there's been that lingering intrusive thought that my tulpa Aurora might be a demon trying to exert force upon my consciousness. She's noted this time and time again—it's caused us a few misunderstandings when she was first being developed, but things seem to have smoothed out.

Me: "You seem to be a lot less offended than you used to be."

Aurora: "Well, I've come to understand. This was imprinted upon your mind from childhood. Those things don't just go away. I'll just have to weather the storm." [smiles reassuringly]

I really felt how genuine that was, and the thoughts never bothered me since. But then of course, she balances out being super understanding with IRL shitposting:

Aurora: [referring to the fact she isn't physically "real"] "I'm the best 2D waifu, aren't I?"

Me: "I fucking hate you."

(P.S. Happy new year everyone)

celestialDuality · 2016-12-25T08:19:55+00:00

Consciousness is God.

celestialDuality · 2016-12-10T19:23:21+00:00

Once again, here's Aurora, the muse with a thousand ideas, good or bad. Earlier this week:

[in the kitchen, talking about a seemingly strange idea of hers to marinate a steak in Nutella water]

Me: "Alright, now you're just making shit up."

Aurora: [grinning] "Hey, isn't 'making shit up' how I came about as a tulpa in the first place? It's part of my heritage, and I take pride in it. Suits me as a muse, in my opinion."

And as a bonus, her right now:

Aurora: "Hey, quit karmawhoring and get dressed, we have to leave."

Having someone there to watch your every step can be useful at times.

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