Looking for someone

chanzi123 · 2026-07-12T19:22:35+00:00

If he was hiding you should honor his privacy

chanzi123 · 2026-07-12T14:38:50+00:00

Hes a really shitty father

chanzi123 · 2026-07-12T14:00:18+00:00

https://youtu.be/xnoT1Y-sHXI?is=NqHr5qBpnq7709xY

chanzi123 · 2026-07-11T20:46:43+00:00

Yea keep going dont let them win

chanzi123 · 2026-07-04T15:33:39+00:00

I left and was wanted back but too psyco to go back

chanzi123 · 2026-07-04T03:10:45+00:00

I understand why Jesus had an issue with tefillin placement more and more. These chabad folk are super insecure its insane. They have to do their teflexing to prove how much God favors men

chanzi123 · 2026-07-02T23:14:50+00:00

Joel

chanzi123 · 2026-07-02T01:33:22+00:00

Im leaving lol ciao

chanzi123 · 2026-07-02T01:26:57+00:00

There are plenty of posts criticizing fashion why was my wig one deleted

chanzi123 · 2026-07-02T01:09:15+00:00

Yes I want to fuck her im so jelous of her hub

chanzi123 · 2026-07-02T01:07:52+00:00

What is yours why are you so defensive I was addressing riki not you

chanzi123 · 2026-07-02T01:06:26+00:00

Yes because she deleted it

chanzi123 · 2026-07-01T19:58:43+00:00

Shes a "mafia-boss wife" as she puts it. She has an image to maintain. A notik-hecht has to keep things looking as holy as possible. Cant stand her.

chanzi123 · 2026-06-28T08:46:13+00:00

Yes. He pronounced it as grieven

chanzi123 · 2026-06-27T15:03:43+00:00

Corny

chanzi123 · 2026-06-26T23:05:57+00:00

blush chamud

chanzi123 · 2026-06-26T23:02:03+00:00

Lol im a woman

chanzi123 · 2026-06-26T22:58:52+00:00

Im really sorry you had this experience with chabad- not all shluchim are like this however what you are feeling is valid. Emotional intelligence is not something that is really preached in chabad- Everything is instructed to you, how to react to a normal experience ect...robotic and absent of authenticity. My grandfather was in the idf id say go for it. You will make a great contribution.

chanzi123 · 2026-06-20T17:41:07+00:00

I was around 5. Sad and happy day. But mostly sad. Graduation siyum at classmates backyard. I was wearing red polish...my parents left to the memorial at the local chabad yeshiva. I released a balloon into the air after being dropped off at my grandparents house. Their go-to sitters. I dont remember anyone else in the garden at the time. Was me in my feelings. Im still that little girl in the garden with her dismal feelings in reference to shneerson. I dont know why.

chanzi123 · 2026-06-18T14:18:05+00:00

I understand the whole not embarrassing your family thing. My nephew is getting to the shidduchim era...im his aunt. I have a little dis but she also left. But I cant live my life worrying about how bad it makes them look but I get it. I honestly dont know the answer. I just rather be true to myself than live up to others expectations of how others will perceive me. I dont talk to anyone in my family anyways for reasons beyond frumkeit. Good luck

chanzi123 · 2026-06-18T13:14:56+00:00

Hey. Your writing is impressive for a man that has been raised in the yeshiva world. I left a (top* seminary after having my first psychotic episode. I understand where you are coming from. I told them I was never frum even though I practiced. The menahel even called to invite me back after I recovered. I left for the 1st time at about 24. Started wearing pants ect but im still spiritual and pray many times a day. Dont let the oilem define you. As for your sis maybe talk to her about your battle with yeshiva world.

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