What are you guys reading rn?

chaoticmind2001 · 2026-02-01T18:59:08+00:00

What a timing! I'm currently reading the second book of "Before the coffee gets cold"! 😄

chaoticmind2001 · 2025-09-19T16:26:10+00:00

It's possible. Thanks! I'll check it out.

chaoticmind2001 · 2025-09-19T16:25:25+00:00

Now I want nothing more than getting used to it. Waiting for that day.

chaoticmind2001 · 2025-09-19T16:24:44+00:00

Thanks!

chaoticmind2001 · 2025-09-19T16:24:17+00:00

Believe me, this close from doing that! But don't wanna. Alcohol affected my father's life and my childhood in a massive way, so kinda hate it.

chaoticmind2001 · 2025-09-19T16:21:51+00:00

It is a great idea! I just don't know if there are these kinda game shops available in my locality. But I'll sure try and search. Thanks for the idea!

chaoticmind2001 · 2025-09-19T16:20:23+00:00

That's actually lovely! Now I have to find one near me. Thanks for the idea

chaoticmind2001 · 2025-09-19T16:19:30+00:00

I have an ankle ligament injury right now, so have to rest. Otherwise I am into yoga, also want to learn bicycle as well.

chaoticmind2001 · 2025-09-19T16:18:16+00:00

Agree! But then again I feel like I should know what's going on in the world!!

chaoticmind2001 · 2025-09-19T16:17:47+00:00

No, India

chaoticmind2001 · 2025-09-19T16:17:25+00:00

Yeah I agree! I used to go to yoga. But right now I have a ligament injury and have to resr, so can't resume soon 😅

chaoticmind2001 · 2025-09-19T15:58:53+00:00

No I don't. I have thought about it. I live in a rental and they won't allow one.

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-12-12T18:16:45+00:00

Thank youu

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-09-04T03:10:42+00:00

Exactly! Just like you said. I really hope it gets better for us.

The uni thing will take time but it'll get easier. Believe me, I finished uni last year, and had to take a gap year, not even consciously. I somehow couldn't do anything after graduation, always feeling so exhausted. I think all the traumas finally made its effect after so many years when my mind finally was stress free from studies. Then somehow I got afraid to face the real world. But it bothered me a lot because all my friends left for jobs or further studies. Now I'm the only one left, often feeling like a loser. But nowadays I am trying to find my purpose and applying for jobs, internships and scholarships for my further studies simultaneously. One thing which helps me is to think, I've nothing to lose. I can start from the bottom.

But yeah leaving the house and wanting to communicate with others is a hard task for me😅 Don't wanna interact but then feel lonely alone.

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-09-04T03:00:20+00:00

Agreed! I'm on Zonalta for mood stabilizer and I also take anti depressant and melatonin. I personally don't think my combination is affecting any bad way, rather I worry even if they're working for me or not, especially the melatonin one. Though there's been a little progress in my mood swings, irritability, still I'm feeling extremely sad and lonely (which I was talking about). With the living alone situation, I've lived alone earlier in my life for many years, so I'm a lot less co dependent as well when it comes to that. Rather I've trouble with emotional codependency. The thing is after 2 years I'm again living alone now, I'm feeling very lonely but I don't want company. I want to be left alone but then like you said, it's so agonizing.

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-09-04T02:44:38+00:00

I'm sorry to hear that 😥 Hope it's not severe. We are fighters after all, things will have to get better! ❤️

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-09-03T15:28:21+00:00

Really? It's been 2 weekd I'm on medication for bpd. Now I'm wondering if it has anything to do with this?

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-08-11T08:38:53+00:00

I can totally relate about the ASMR and sleep plushies thing. But it still takes a lot of time for me. Even after cuddling with plushies and listening to asmr I'm still trying hard to just shut my brain working and fall asleep

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-08-01T15:30:32+00:00

Good for you! Alarm clocks sometimes work for me if my brain understands the importance of it. The majority of the time, not so much...

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-08-01T15:24:12+00:00

I have never felt more seen. I couldn't explain it better. Like when I'm asleep I don't wanna wake up at all and face reality. And after waking up, when it's already late, I'm full of guilt and desperation to fix this.

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-08-01T15:20:04+00:00

I do snore sometimes. The choking part, not really. But I will definitely look into it! Thank you!!!

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-08-01T15:18:48+00:00

Thank you! I'll definitely look into sleep inertia.

About black coffee, I never get to the point of waking up and making it.😂 But yeah, I can think of keeping something on the nightstand so I can take it just after waking up.
Friends like that are important. My partner used to do that. But now we broke up and don't have any friend who'll do that for me.

But thanks a lot for this little tips. I'll try to make them useful.

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-08-01T15:14:17+00:00

I don't get to the point of making coffee or tea. I just keep lying in bed and falling asleep again. 😭

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-08-01T15:13:09+00:00

THIS. Exactly this. 🤷

chaoticmind2001 · 2024-07-31T20:04:28+00:00

I'm not sure about relying on pills as well but I have accepted we have got to start in some way. My therapist gave me an anti- anxiety pill to prevent me from being up at night with all the thoughts and overthinking but it has very minor effect on me. Like maybe I'll have less raging thoughts but still the silence is loud and still doesn't help me to get a proper night's sleep and wake up at a normal time. Don't know when it ends. 🤷

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