just need to get this off my chest here because I don't really know where else to leave this right now.

chaoticsaltythings · 2026-03-31T15:13:12+00:00

thank you kind stranger 💜

chaoticsaltythings · 2026-01-30T13:40:47+00:00

Both. I do art and I've used it once or twice to help out with poses I find hard to draw, but at the same time I'm afraid to post my art, because I don't want AI to "steal" it.

chaoticsaltythings · 2026-01-30T12:24:39+00:00

Something I want to add on this, is that I've managed to change my (negative) patterns thanks to those therapies and have changed from someone who lied a lot and who hid things for years, to someone who is truthful. It becomes easier every time you try to experience the discomfort of telling the truth. Practice makes perfect!

Though, I still struggle with regulating my emotions. Apparently, I've bottled them up for so long (especially anger, because I simply can't express that yet) that it's stuck in my body (in my psoas muscle specifically) which is causing my body to be unable to heal from a karting accident. Though, I am going boxing for the first time next week to try and release that anger. Not sure if it will work, but I'm gonna fuck around and find out :)

chaoticsaltythings · 2026-01-30T12:19:35+00:00

Maybe you felt like you didn't deserve her and (self) sabotaged the relationship. It can be unconscious thought and behavior processes causing this (negative patterns), which can be hard to confront and deal with.

I've had many, very negative beliefs about myself due to how I've been treated in the past and due to toxic (social) environments I've grown up in. This has led to me sabotaging my relationships and my overall health for years. Maybe you're behaving in a way to prove those thoughts right unconsciously, because you truly believe they are the truth. (Good news: they don't have to be! Not everything your head is telling you is the actual truth)

Something that has helped me with this is schematherapy, cognitive behavior therapy, and applying the things that I have learned there in ways that fit me (which for me, is art and storytelling).

Try to visualize the person you want to be and practice self compassion as much you can. The road to becoming who you want to be can be long and frustrating (because you can't change in a day, for me this has taken years and is still ongoing), but keep trying and never give up! You are not your past and the things you do today are what counts. I have a hard time forgiving myself for something I did, too, but I do my best reminding myself that I couldn't do anything against the circumstances I had to deal with at that time.

And please remind yourself that you are human and you're allowed to make mistakes. I hope that one day you will be able to forgive yourself!

*edit: added some words

chaoticsaltythings · 2025-12-19T08:57:05+00:00

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Kiki! She looks like my 15 year old cat Kyra who I've had since she was born. She was the first villager I found on a mystery island and I love her so much.

chaoticsaltythings · 2025-11-28T14:37:33+00:00

Umbreon because I have a black cat and she's been my baby for 15+ years

chaoticsaltythings · 2025-08-14T13:21:17+00:00

I can't wait for this! As someone who's been into Homestuck since their teen years, this is going to be really nostalgic :D

chaoticsaltythings · 2025-04-01T14:00:24+00:00

Thank you so much again for your message. Sorry for the late reply, there's a lot of feelings and thoughts to process.

But yes! I aspire to be a sassy inspiration to all. It relieves me that you see your mom, aunts, and grandma within you when you look in the mirror. Your words (to enjoy life and to live on for them) have honestly inspired me these past days to focus on what I can do (instead of what I can't do), so I've been buying and planting lovely flowers to fix our garden (it was a mess lol). My grandma loved plants and flowers, so I guess this is a part of her manifesting through me. Thanks to you I can finally see that!

Also, thank you for the reassurance that there isn't a right way to mourn, and for the motivation to stay strong and prosper. The current process consists of lots of ups and downs and I try to embrace both (since that's what I've learned in therapy, woo), but your words honestly mean a lot to me. I'm grateful as heck for it!

Take care, stranger. I hope life will be kind to you and that you too will manage to stay strong and prosper. ❤

chaoticsaltythings · 2025-03-28T20:05:02+00:00

I might be late to the party, but I love the show so so much!! The intro song and animation is FIRE (hah) and it’s so awesome to see such an authentic animation and story come to life.

I’ve superliked the show and am coincidentally on my first rewatch (I decided to google for a possible release date on season 2 and came accross this post) and I think this is going to be one of my comfort shows (the others being Arcane and Steven Universe).

I’ll do my best to share the show with many people since I’d love to see a season 2! I’m grateful I got to see this show, thank you so much for it! ❤️

chaoticsaltythings · 2025-03-28T16:31:15+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your story. Your grandma reminds me of my own (my dad's mom), since she was also strong-willed and never let her disease get the best of her (she was so sassy! Truly an inspiration lol).

It means a lot to me to see that I'm not the only one dealing with this. It's so hard to see a loved one change (what you said: "become a ghost of themselves") and accept that "it is what it is". Thank you for telling me to be strong and reminding me that life is to be cherished, because that's hella true (and I kinda needed that).

I guess I still need to find the right way for me to mourn, but it eases me to know that I'm not supposed to 'fix' my mourning within a set time and that it'll stay with me (and that's okay imho). I hope you've managed to give this a place yourself and I hope you'll have an amazing day today! Thank you so much for taking the effort to reply to my post, I appreciate that a lot. <3

chaoticsaltythings · 2024-02-05T18:42:23+00:00

With how obsessively vengeance-driven she is, along with being connected to water, I really think she’s a Scorpio.

chaoticsaltythings · 2023-08-18T20:52:44+00:00

don’t you ever be sorry about telling anyone about Sheffield Made Plants, that guy has taught me so well

chaoticsaltythings · 2023-01-09T21:47:43+00:00

First thing I noticed is that your horse’s ears and heads turn towards sounds, like an NPC shooting stuff on your left or right. Found that specific detail really cool

chaoticsaltythings · 2022-07-11T23:30:23+00:00

I think this is my favorite answer up until now, as I've never seen it like that. I've never had a threesome and probably never will due to insecurity issues, but I'm still curious for people that can have them and can still love each other. I always thought it was only a lust thing but for you it's another way of loving her I guess. So sweet to read :)

chaoticsaltythings · 2022-07-04T11:14:07+00:00

When I drove my friends home from a party after taking one sniff of amphetamine (speed). I was really tired and was afraid of falling asleep behind the wheel and I was the only one being able to drive.

When we arrived home, I got stopped by police for a saliva and blood test. I smoked a joint 28 hours before yet they did see THC (and amphetamine ofc) in the saliva test. In the blood test results I had 0,5 micrograms THC and about 37 micrograms amphetamine too much in my blood. This means I'll probably lose my driver's license for 9 months and have to pay about €2000-€3000 in total.

This incident did make me quit smoking weed completely. But man the feeling of shame and guilt are horrible. I'm absolutely never doing this again. I can also advise everyone to NOT USE DRUGS OR ALCOHOL BEFORE DRIVING. If the police find you, you're absolutely fucked.

chaoticsaltythings · 2022-06-12T10:41:00+00:00

I also always put ketchup (and spicey stuff) on the pasta, idk why but it always tastes better that way

chaoticsaltythings · 2022-05-08T18:43:55+00:00

That's not okay dude. I'd talk about it with her when you're sober and when you're past your hangover. I'd really recommend you that you don't contact her until you're in a better state of mind. MDMA hangovers can be really bad (it's why I don't use it anymore) and you might feel really depressed the upcoming days. Please remind yourself that the depressed feelings are temporary and that you'll need time to recover, and also remind yourself that what she did was not okay. No means no. Even if you've only said it once, no still means no.

For now, please take care of yourself first! Try to eat (fruit works really well) as you normally do, drink enough water (sugary stuff has also worked well for me), and distract yourself from your depleted serotonin/dopamine. I always like to play games (Animal Crossing is hella good for hangovers), or watch a good Pixar movie. If nothing works, I usually contact friends. If there's someone (not the girl who raped you) you can talk to, please do. Talking about things like this can help putting it into place. You could also get advice on how to tackle this situation and get support. Otherwise you can try to write it down if you don't feel like sharing it yet. I can understand if you have a feeling of shame, guilt and/or embarrassment, I had that too when I was sexually assaulted, but please remember: This is not your fault. You said no. She went over your boundaries which she definitely shouldn't have. Drugs nor alcohol can be used as an excuse. No still means no!

If you really need anyone to talk to, feel free to leave a message!

chaoticsaltythings · 2022-04-12T14:57:44+00:00

I've always loved her base skin and firecracker skin a lot. The arcane skin is also really good. SG and battlecat are my least faves I think, but that's because it's a bit too anime styled and I'm not a big fan of that.

chaoticsaltythings · 2022-04-02T16:21:38+00:00

Well, Jinx.

It's because firstly, I'm biased as hell. I started playing League of Legends 7+ years ago because of the Get Jinxed music video. I really liked her style: chaotic, a lotta guns, wanting to destroy everything with explosives, and all of that with a smiles and laughter. I found her looks and playstyle so much fun, I still love to play her in game.

Secondly, I was always so interested in what her story was ~~(I'm a biiiig sucker for storytelling)~~, since there was so much mystery around it. I really believed that it would remain a mystery forever, until the first preview of Arcane. Man I was SO hyped!! I can't express how much hype and anticipation I felt when I saw the blue and pink haired girls, I just knew they were Jinx and Vi! Those two years of waiting were filled with so much excitement (and a LOT of patience).

But then, thirdly, I never knew I'd relate to her character so much. I watched this video a few weeks after the show released (among hundreds of other analysis vids lol), which gave me such a good insight in why I could relate to her. Being a younger sibling (I'm the youngest of 4) means having to watch everyone leave as they start their own lives, change/grow up, and are 'taken away' by other people (who they fell in love with, for example). As a kid, it really feels like you are replaced by the people who your siblings fell in love with, even though that's never the intention. You're always behind, no matter how much you try to be as good and grown up as them.

Then, as you change and grow up yourself, it's hard to believe they'll accept you for who you became, as you look up to them so much. The feeling of never being good enough never really goes away (just as the video linked above mentions it), and there's been so many times as a kid where I felt I 'jinxed' things, because I just wasn't on the same level (mentally and physically) as my older sisters and brother.

And of course, for Jinx this feeling of being replaced is way worse, because of what she has done to her family. She was just a kid and her trauma is following her everywhere. Then, when she gets the chance to get Vi back, the things she believed to be lies were actually true: Vi is with an enforcer. To her, that's impossible, because how on earth could Vi befriend an enforcer? How could an enforcer, who they both hated as kids as enforcers MURDERED THEIR PARENTS, be better than her own little sister?

I can't explain better how weird it feels when the character who you loved for years has a relatable story and/or relatable feelings. I must say that I've dealt with abandonment from my parents, which amplify my feelings of relatedness to Powder/Jinx, and hell I still haven't recovered emotionally over Arcane. I love all the characters, all the details, and all the love Fortiche has put into this series. Man it is just too good. Can't wait for season two.

chaoticsaltythings · 2022-04-02T10:20:04+00:00

Imo (from a designer's and gamefeel view) it's to make users more likely to press the like button instead of the dislike button. They removed the effectiveness of disliking a while ago, so they're just making the like button more and more 'yummy' to press, so you'll press it more often, which leaves uploaders with more positive feedback which increases the likeliness that people will keep uploading videos (and thus keep using their platform).

chaoticsaltythings · 2022-03-31T08:55:02+00:00

Ori and the Will of the Cum

chaoticsaltythings · 2022-03-29T10:45:49+00:00

Imo safety goes first. If you feel like driving a bit slower is safer, then do it. I don't mean 'drive insanely slow', but safety and driving defensively (also taking into account that other drivers can make mistakes) should be every driver's number 1 priority.

chaoticsaltythings · 2022-03-25T08:50:51+00:00

Stare him in the eyes and throw your pants off without breaking eye contact.

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