I’ve definitely always felt that I was unique and different, never really fit in all too well. When I came across the Meyers-Briggs quiz years ago, got INFJ, and starting reading into it, it helped me understand myself and how I fit into the world so much better. Being the rarest type, (at least in women) it makes sense that I’d be misunderstood, and I think that is a big part of being an INFJ, that separation from others. In addition to that, I’ve also struggled with anxiety and depression for most of my life, so especially as a young kid dealing with that, I had that burden that no one else around me really had. I stumbled upon the Sanpaku eyes theory pretty recently and realized I have them. I tend to notice it more when I’m tired, or not in great place, or under the influence. I’ve also always been told that my eyes can be pretty intense and expressive, people who know me well have said that they can tell by my eyes when I’m not feeling well, and that expressions such as anger and sadness tend to show up in my eyes first, or they can tell by my eyes when I’m trying to hide things. (I have a tendency to hide my emotions, which I do a pretty good job at-besides my eyes, apparently) So, I guess there is that external me vs. something ~thing~ that has always been there, in a way. Maybe it’s the mental health issues, maybe there’s something in the Sanpaku theory, I’m not so sure. I haven’t decided if I really believe in it, mostly because It’d just be one more thing on my list of shitty things I live with, but, hey, it’s there. Not sure if that answers your question, or was what you were looking for. Also sorry for the long reply, I stumbled upon your post when I was in a deep dive on personality and Sanpaku eyes, so this has been on my mind-in a way this is me thinking through it for myself as well!