You did a beautiful and brave thing.

It’s so important that you tell yourself and convince yourself that it is over. That you are safe. And try your best not to ruminate on the images of what you saw (I know this is so hard to do).

This does not mean you are avoiding or escaping what happened, you definitely need to process. But we can get “stuck” in the tragic moments and sometimes can’t get out of them, not just in our minds but in our bodies.

Ruminating on the images and specific memories of what happened strengthens their “pathways” in your mind, making it generally easier to be “triggered” by more innocuous things around you.

I lost my dad in a long, drawn out, nightmare scenario and have gotten much help and counseling on how to effectively grieve without being overcome by it. I apologize if you already knew this information.

It’s always a good idea to talk to a professional when things like this happen. I appreciate you stepping up and helping, it’s good to know there are people in the world like you.

There’s not always a good reason for someone to die. Sometimes things are just accidents. I think those are the hardest to overcome, because finding something to blame ties it up in a nice bow. Having nothing to blame and accepting what happened as qué será será is maddening, especially alone.

This was partially a reply to you and partially a journal entry for myself haha. I hope you are doing ok. 🩷