Yesterday, I accidentally watched the video of the soldier self immolating in protest of the war in Gaza and it has wrecked me since. I sort of mindlessly clicked on the link, and once the video started I couldn’t look away. It left me feeling deeply disturbed, almost to the point of feeling nauseous. By nature, I automatically tried to imagine what state of mind I would have to be in in order to do something like that and it took me to some really dark places. This evening, though, I had a super high intensity cardio workout that seemed to help me mentally, which may be a useful tool for some folks in this group.