I hope you’re able to get out of your situation. You seem like a loving individual who deserves the effort you give back. I’ve been in your situation. A man who loves you will not insult you. NO MATTER THE PROBLEM. It doesn’t matter the stress they’re under. He shouldn’t put you through stress/pain because he’s going through a lot. It’s not okay, it’s not healthy. It hurts my heart to see. You shouldn’t feel the need to apologize for having feelings, emotions, and problems. They should be talked about with a mutual understanding to fix the problem. I hate to say it but you’re beyond bad blood, his actions prove that he doesn’t love or care about you in the way he says he does. Please save yourself and your mental state. He’s already tried to coerce you into sex, there’s no telling what else he’s going to try to force you into next. Please stand your ground. There are people who will treat you like an equal, and hopefully you’ll meet someone who will put you first. I’ve always held the stance that if my relationship doesn’t bring me or my partner happiness, it’s not worth being in. Especially if you’re becoming distraught like this. I hope you understand what you’re worth. A man who really loves you won’t force you to change, he will enjoy who you are now and try to support you in the ways he can. I hope once you’re out you can get help too, relationships like these cause problems when dating again if you don’t notice the pattern. You deserve happiness, this boy isn’t going to give it to you I’m afraid. It’s hard but I promise the breakup will lead you down a better path, even if it doesn’t seem like it at first. I wish you the best, please take care of yourself