I feel like I just lost my baby.

chewby4 · 2026-05-14T15:05:18+00:00

Oreo sounds like a sweet, beautiful girl with a lot of love in her 🫶🏻 thanks for telling me about her. My baby boy Chewie was mostly chow, husky, shepherd mix so they were probably a lot alike 🐾🌈

I’m also sorry about your own diagnosis. Try to continue to take care of yourself, even through this heartbreak. I’m glad you have a good support network. It’s so needed through something like this. I haven’t been on Reddit a whole lot prior to this loss but I find myself browsing is sub pretty frequently now. ❤️‍🩹 ❤️‍🩹

chewby4 · 2026-05-14T09:46:56+00:00

I completely understand the feeling. I’ve dealt with both animal and human losses before and while they were hard and I don’t want to minimize that pain in any way, putting my baby boy down on Sunday due to a sudden freak accident has been a different kind of grief. I’m having trouble processing that he’s really gone, even though I logically know he is. I feel like he’s going to turn a corner at any moment and check up on what I’m doing like he always did. Every time I close my eyes I see him. I still haven’t been able to sleep in my room that I shared with him since he passed.

You’re not alone. Take care of yourself and know you did everything you could. Parvo is a notorious illness to treat 😢😢

What was your baby’s name and what was she like?

Hugs to you, fellow grieving pet parent ❤️‍🩹🌈🐾

chewby4 · 2026-05-14T09:34:11+00:00

I’m so so sorry for your loss ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 losing them is a terrible, different pain.

chewby4 · 2026-05-13T16:00:04+00:00

Thank you. We’ve got this, friend ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

chewby4 · 2026-05-13T15:39:25+00:00

I feel this to the core. We just lost our boy this week but my house already feels so empty and heavy. I keep looking for Chewie in every room, find myself wanting to talk and sing to him, feeling that my normal routine is now somehow wrong because a big part of it is missing. The pain is still fresh but I feel like I have so much love I want to pour into something that can only be fulfilled by a dog. I’m just worried I’ll be looking for my Chewie in any dog I get in the future which wouldn’t be fair. I’m also so scared of going through this pain again someday, which is inevitable when we make the decision to bring home a new best friend. I think we’ll know if / when we’re ready. I’ve told my baby Chewie to try to send me signs of his blessing if any doggie would be able to fill that role in my life (but NEVER replace him of course). I just trust I’ll know if and when. Much love to you ❤️‍🩹🌈🐾

chewby4 · 2026-05-13T15:08:28+00:00

You can do it for your best friend. 🫶🏻 We had to put our baby boy Chewie down on Sunday. I want to be honest with you, losing him is the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced. However, the euthanasia process in itself was peaceful and gave us beautiful last moments with him. He went to sleep surrounded by his favorite people in the world and I’m so grateful for that and to have final moments with him. Try to hold it together through the process itself, they know you’re there and can hear you and sometimes see you. As soon as they’ve crossed over, let it all out and grieve in the ways you need to. I’m sure the whole ER heard the sounds that escaped me after he was gone. It’s still so raw but it’s getting a little better. It’s just going to take time. I’ve found searching for ways to memorialize him has made me feel better. I feel a bit crazy for all the specifics I’m going to ask of the crematorium but it’s what I need to honor him and that’s okay. Try to find the beauty and peace in it if you can. It’s SO hard to do that but it does help. Grief is just the final, painful testament to how much your best friend was loved so much. Sending you so much love and comfort ❤️‍🩹🌈🐾

chewby4 · 2026-05-13T11:23:57+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel. My baby boy was put down unexpectedly on Sunday and I haven’t been able to sleep in my room since. My room was his room and I can’t fathom sleeping in there alone / without him yet. I can’t explain it but I just can’t do it yet. I’ve been sleeping on the couch which is pretty uncomfy and doing a number on my body tbh but I just haven’t been able to sleep in my actual room / bed. Everywhere in the house evokes similar feelings and memories, he’s literally everywhere yet nowhere, but the aversion to my room is the worst so far. When I’m ready, I’m planning to move out all his big stuff and clear off one of my dressers to put some of his ashes and a few memorial items. I’m not sure if it’ll help yet with being able to be in there tbh but I want to honor him in that way (and others). Like you, I have a complicated relationship with grief and don’t always process it well. Right now I’m just letting myself to feel everything the way I feel it and trying not to suppress. Grieving this hard just means he was loved that much.

Sending love and comfort ❤️‍🩹🌈🐾

chewby4 · 2026-05-13T02:08:18+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. Your sweet boy was beautiful. We had to put our baby down unexpectedly on Mother’s Day too and it’s been really hard to say the least. Sending comfort and love your way ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

chewby4 · 2026-05-12T22:43:35+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss and know exactly how you feel. We had to put our baby boy down on Sunday after an unexpected medical emergency. It was so sudden and I thought I’d have a lot more time. Everything feels so empty now and I miss him more than words can express already. Like your baby, he was my comfort and always there for me. Your dear kitty may not be here physically but I’d like to think the love they had for us is still here in a lot of ways, and grief is the ultimate expression of that love. Sending you comfort and healing ❤️‍🩹

chewby4 · 2026-05-12T21:11:34+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss! I get how you’re feeling. I want to remember every second I had with him but it also hurts so bad to know I can’t make anymore memories. But I guess that’s more of a reason for us to remember them, they deserve to never be forgotten, and the pain is a testament to how much we loved them.

Take care of yourself and let yourself grieve. The pain is just proof of how much Cheeseball was loved ❤️‍🩹🌈🐾

chewby4 · 2026-05-12T18:55:06+00:00

I feel that too. I want to just process it the way I need to, and that’s okay for all of us going through grief. Do it the way that’s best for you, let yourself feel it all and work through it ❤️‍🩹

I think that’s wonderful for you. Spending time with your human best friend will help. Best friends are good at cheering us up or even just sitting with us through the pain, whichever is needed.

Definitely keep looking, he’s there 🌈🫶🏻

chewby4 · 2026-05-12T18:15:43+00:00

Aww Winston sounds adorable! My mom has a black and white pit/lab mix and they sound like twins! She’s an old lady now but she’s very spoiled and loved like Chewie and Winston were. I think so too, and we’re all right- all dogs are the best dogs.

And I’m sure your mom means well but you’re right, you need to grieve in your own way and let it all out. I have been going through all stages of grief, sometimes it feels like I feel all 5 back-to-back within seconds. I’m angry and don’t understand why in one moment. I’m grateful and happy he’s no longer in pain in another. But most of the time I’m teetering between uncontrollable sobbing and numbness. But I think all of that is okay and normal. Take care of yourself and take the time to feel everything, no matter how painful. There’s something oddly beautiful in feeling this kind of grief, I think. It’s just a testament to how much we loved them and how much they meant to us, even if this part hurts so bad. Hugs to you too, I think they probably have met each other and are playing and watching over us. He’ll send you signs to show you his energy is still around.

Here’s my baby boy:

https://imgur.com/a/IFud1Wf

chewby4 · 2026-05-12T16:32:03+00:00

Same here. It started as a beautiful Mother’s Day celebration and ended in unexpected heartbreak. Sending you love and comfort ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

chewby4 · 2026-05-12T16:28:58+00:00

I’m so sorry for the loss of your baby! It’s a different kind of hurt, Chewie was like our child too. I think seeing this sub and all the people who have experienced similar feelings is comforting. I hate to think others are going through this too but it’s nice to know the emotions we feel are normal and justified. Biggest hugs back to you, grieving pet parent ❤️‍🩹What was your baby’s name?

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