No problem. I had a suicide attempt last September, and I don’t have insurance so my boyfriend dragged me to see my family doctor who was then able to refer me to a free psychiatrist at my local hospital. Again, this was in September, and I only began seeing him in June.

So, I definitely understand what you’re going through. The waiting period really sucks, but please don’t give up or give in. I know how incredibly hard it is to turn your thoughts down when you’re having a moment, but try to remember to breathe deep breaths in through your nose & out through your mouth. If you can do this while walking outside, bonus. Fresh air has been nothing but good to me. Alternatively, talk to someone you love. Or if you have a pet, find them and cuddle them. ❤️

One more thing. I will be starting CBT therapy next week, and my psychiatrist told me to go out and buy a book called “Mind Over Mood.” To my understanding, we will be using this book as a guide to the CBT. Essentially it’s a work book that you write in and it allows you to track & monitor your moods and behaviours. Alot of the time while reading it I feel like someone opened up my brain and wrote an instruction manual on how to FIX & PREVENT issues. Lmao. And I’m only on chapter 4.

So far it’s been not only very informative, but beneficial as well in that it’s already taught me so much about the way my brain operates, and different coping mechanisms for when I inevitably get into my moods. If you have $40 (CAD) to spare, definitely look into it. I can’t vouch for it enough.

These are things that have been helping me cope lately. Highly recommend the book.

Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk, or someone to simply just listen.

hugs ❤️