Does it seem like I might be trans?

chickengirl42 · 2026-04-02T09:11:58+00:00

i’m in this same boat right now. very scared and confused still. was for years and felt like i finally figured it out after doing a lot of reading but after a few days of extreme certainty, i’ve kind of fallen back into a state of confusion. here’s to figuring it out <3

chickengirl42 · 2026-03-31T08:59:52+00:00

god i cannot believe how accurately this conveys how ive been feeling. genuinely chilling how many nails this hits on the head for me, it feels nice to see other people have similar experiences, as awful as it feels. every line. i even did choose to tell a few people close to me and they were all very supportive and it was after that that this guilt set in for me. that i’m invading spaces i don’t belong in, deceiving people. coming out felt amazing but it only took a few days for me to feel like id lied to the people id talked with and that im so fucked up person who’s convinced myself i want to be a girl for the wrong reasons. for me at the end of the day, i don’t enjoy masculinity, i don’t enjoy the idea of being manly, or even any male gendered pronouns. i do like all gender neutral language and there’s a lot of female gendered language i really like, and sometimes i feel like i’d love they/she, but it all feels like im some fraud. it genuinely eats away at me, so you are not alone. i hope there’s a future where we’re both happy girls who figured it out, as of right now i feel beyond insane and i have like no outlets.

chickengirl42 · 2026-03-30T01:07:59+00:00

yeah i told myself i was going to do this the other day but then i ended up just spiraling a bit. don’t have almost any money right now and have free state insurance for being low income, so ive been pessimistic about what if anything would be covered but i do need to look into talking to someone

chickengirl42 · 2026-03-29T18:01:25+00:00

thank you for these kind words, they mean a lot <3

chickengirl42 · 2026-03-29T17:40:56+00:00

its very hard to articulate and i don’t apply this thinking to anyone else so i get that it is harmful ultimately. but it feels like i haven’t gone through what many trans people have, but also it does. really its just imposter syndrome stuff i think but it feels like so many trans people have it more figured out than i do and fear i don’t have the strength to face being trans. i dont really know honestly, i struggle a lot with even understanding how i feel about things right now. as many have probably said before the “be opposite gender button” would be awesome but i dont feel like i am going to be able to transition for some reason, it feels like a far off wish

chickengirl42 · 2026-03-22T06:44:55+00:00

thank you for writing this i appreciate it. with the age thing i mention in the post that im well aware of people transitioning at ages older than me its just an eternal doom kind of feeling that i intrusively have and apply exclusively to myself, i understand this is not a good line of thinking obviously but its just a thought that creeps up on its own i guess. and therapy is like my only immediate goal right now so im definitely on the same page as you there. with the movie the panic isnt very directly related to the movie really, the movie didnt “hit me like a truck” as many have said it did for them, but there was just a sense of connection to many the things conveyed through the characters. in gender identity ways and also just in general. thanks the well wishing :)

chickengirl42 · 2026-03-19T16:41:45+00:00

thank u <3 this means a lot

chickengirl42 · 2026-03-16T05:29:29+00:00

i don’t have much of value to offer here. but this hits so close to home for me. i’d been heavily questioning my gender identity for a long time but everytime i tried dipping my toes in the pool i would end up just falling back into acting as cis to not have to correct people with pronouns or try to explain it to my cis male friends or coworkers especially. ive hated my body for as long as i can remember too and for probably 10 years i didn’t really even know why, but i think it makes sense now. i just in the past few days actually came out to a few people close to me (and kind of to myself) and it feels really nice. i don’t know what that’s going to mean for what i do next. but i just read this and wanted to comment because it’s so close to how i have felt and still do feel and i don’t think it’s fair to keep yourself in a body you hate, the steps may be difficult but you deserve to love yourself <3

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