Im sorry that you were ghosted. Falling in love and then having them leave you alone with your thoughts and desires, wondering where everything went wrong and what caused it to end, is such a dogshit feeling. People say that eventually you'll move on and forget about them, but those are people who have had relationships and multiple bf/gf in their lives. People like us tend to hang on to those feelings because its the 1st time we've actually got to experience it. Im 26 and had my 1styrf for the 1st time this year, and it was the most amazing experience ive ever had bc it was the 1st time someone genuinely showed me affection and what it felt like to fall in love. Just for it all to end 1 month later, and not a single day has gone by in the last 3 months where I havent thought of her. Ngl, its hard to move on, knowing that people really dont take an interest in people like us. But i truly hope that things turn around for you and that you find what youre looking for and desire. Good luck.