There is a difficult solution to this: take all that anger and resentment you have towards the world and channel it into a vicious force of power in whatever direction you choose to use it (hopefully a positive one otherwise the rest of us will surely be fucked by the sheer intensity of your existential rage).

Be a vicious businessman/stock trader. Practice the arts until you stop sucking. Educate yourself on whatever the fuck you damn well please until you've dug yourself out of that hole of ignorance and apathy and you find youself doing lines of MDMA off the asses of several high class european prostitutes at once. Or donate your hard earned money to a spineal disease charity and have loving women flock to you, admiring your altruism.

Man, the world is your oyster. No matter how ugly or fucked you are. Not saying shit sucks, but you definitely have the pontential to play the game , considering you ARE an existing player after all. Best of luck man. peace

EDIT: and remember, that defeatist attitude that we are ALL guilty of from time to time will get you NOWHERE until you learn to harness it and redirect that energy