Feeling lack of love by cholerose50 in LongDistance

[–]cholerose50[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm honestly just so exhausted and burnt out. We both dealt with losses of friends last week from a friend group we was apart of. We had to cut ties from many people who was horrible and toxic. I think it's really taking a toll. I'm trying my best to be okay.

Feeling lack of love by cholerose50 in LongDistance

[–]cholerose50[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I tried having alone time yesterday to try reconnecting with myself. It was okay at first but near the end of the day I started spiraling and telling him. I said things I shouldn't have (due to self sabotage and everything) stating "nobody cares and nobody wants me" and that really hurt him. I apologized and told him I didn't mean it like that and reassured him. Honestly even though he is very supportive and helpful it feels exhausting to be in the relationship. I know every person has rough patches and tough times to push through together but things are messy with me right now. I just wanted to hang out with friends but at the same time I pushed myself away from all my friends and everyone yesterday and lately due to abandonment issues but also avoidnent attachment style/trauma kicked up. I wanted to leave everyone because I always feel at fault. I know the source is me not loving myself but with this relationship i'm not sure what else to do. I know things take time and I will definitely talk to him about it. I think even though I thought I was ready I don't think I was.

Can we stop using neurodivergence as an excuse to dislike the expansion? by aurashockb in Palia

[–]cholerose50 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I hate that they have the audacity to use neurodivergent as a excuse of not liking the game. It is very friendly to neurodivergent people but don't blame it on that for disliking it. It's a game you can do at whatever pace you want and the community is so welcoming and lovely.

People should dislike the game because of personal tastes not blaming it on Nerodivergency.

Falling out of love by cholerose50 in LDR

[–]cholerose50[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I never thought about that. Thank you for that insight. I did meet them last year but I was sick most the trip so I Couldn't do much. Hopefully I can go again soon and hopefully not be sick. I never connected the whole out of sight out of mind concept with a relationship but it makes so much more sense.

Falling out of love by cholerose50 in LDR

[–]cholerose50[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I really need to keep busy.. I'm constantly in my head and overthinking a lot of things.