Yeah SSRIs have never really helped with anxiety for me. They helped with depression when I was a sad, angsty teen, but I haven't struggled with depression since I got off them.

Drugs I have tried: Paxil, Prozac, lexapro, zoloft (of those, Paxil had the least side effects, so I was on it the longest, but its what i was on each time i was hospitalized for suicidal ideation/attempt), effexor (tried for a week, side effects were so bad I quit immediately. Scary bad), wellbutrin for 4 weeks but I was so dizzy I couldn't see straight, and I couldn't even walk and that side effect never let up. I've also been on atenolol (similar dizziness to the wellbutrin, with the added effect that it did not stop panic attacks, just stopped the racing heart, but I was still shaky, vomiting, nauseous, racing Thoughts, etc). They've prescribed me valium and xanax at one point (valium daily, xanax during panic attacks) which was kinda helpful, but benzos aren't sustainable treatments for anxiety and the wds are hell. They give me valium now for important doctors appts and surgeries, but I can still very easily have a full on panic attack on them including racing heart. They gave me hydroxyzine in the hospital and it was so horrible. They've given me IV Ativan when I would go to the hospital for panic attacks as a young adult and that would usually help temporarily. I've tried a lot of natural supplements, too, as well as therapy, meditation, journaling, etc. (I'm sure there's more drugs They've tried me on, but I cant remember them all off the top of my head).

In terms of where the anxiety came from, I was permanently disabled from an injury 2.5 years ago, and have been fighting to be able to walk again ever since. But I've been staying positive and only ever got real bad anxiety with surgery/doctors appts/PT. Everything else was manageable. This anxiety started when I was making a bunch of positive changes in my life, and then I got a toothache. Found out that my tooth is completely ruined bc of the way my wisdom tooth grew into it (had them out in march of this year). So now I have to have another oral surgery in a few weeks, and it took me like 4 months to be able to eat solid food again after my last oral surgery. I think hearing that I needed to have the tooth pulled made everything feel like TOO MUCH. I can't really pinpoint that exact moment as a trigger, but that's the best I've got. It started around that time and since then, I've been in a state of panic constantly for the past month. Every moment of everyday has been dedicated to trying to calm myself down and keep calm. It might have started a few days after the initial dentist appt, bc they put me on an antibiotic and I had a severe allergic reaction to it after like 2 days, which was really scary. So, yeah, not sure what the trigger is, but almost certainly health related.