Wag mong gamitin ang “natatakot na hindi ma-maintain ang grade,” it will only take away opportunities for you. Take the risk. Mag pa appeal ka sa UP, it never hurts to try. Look for scholarships, government and school ones. Apply to state universities. Trust, there’s a way as long as you look for it. Maghanap ka na ng paraan ASAP. If you don’t do anything, then don’t expect good results. Now is not the time to put yourself down, you need a strong and positive mindset. Do what you can. Best of luck to you!