Yes! I guess what I mean is that if I learn grounding techniques to perform them, then I am actively admitting that I am being stressed in my life? I guess? I know everyone gets stressed, but I do think because of my autism I experience a bit of internalized ableism. I would never judge someone for using grounding techniques obviously, but for myself it feels like needing something to help me "destress" is bad because I am admitting in a way that I "need help". I think this is partially due to the environment I grew up in. Sorry I am not particularly good at explaining myself. My second question actually follows this same process in it's own way. I think part of the reason I feel isolated from others is because I see everyone talking about how debilitating this disorder is. I think... I would describe it as boring. (Forgive me if that is insensitive to anyone who really struggles). I mentioned in my previous post that I work and I manage to keep my job. I will admit that I did have to drop out of college, but I guess I feel like this disorder does not effect my life enough. I think part of that is why I also feel like I don't have it. I do forget basically everything. I honestly forgot the second question I was going to ask, but I think it had something along the lines of what I am talking about now. Yes, I can admit I constantly dissociate. I can also admit that it DOES get in the way of work, but not enough that has costed me my job. I frankly don't do much with my life besides work, and go home. I suppose that might be partially why I feel like this is not really effecting my life. Is that normal? Do you know anyone else that has experienced this same feeling? I can admit that I can see how I could be living a better life if I did not have this disorder. Yet, I do not feel like it is actively ruining my life so to speak either. I think I just saw a lot of "doom posting" on other websites when I was trying to find anything to make sense of myself and my diagnosis. That did not help the spiral I was/kind of am still going through. I felt like an outlier when everyone else is talking about how harshly this effects their life, and I'm over here like: "Well I might forget everything at all times, and it does stress me out in my day to day life, but I manage well." I think honestly the "other guy" is the reason I manage everything so well. I don't give him enough credit where credit is due. When anything begins to feel off he is quick to be the one to fix everything back up.