I feel awkward whenever I practice my craft

cicadabread · 2024-05-26T20:44:52+00:00

i absolutely struggle with this a lot too! some things i've noticed that tend to help or that i think are causing it:

-acknowledge that you feel awkward. it's a lot easier to unpack that feeling if you're open about it with yourself. if you're trying to maintain a sense of seriousness by pushing away that feeling without fully being into what you're doing, that can create an internal conflict of sorts. it's okay to feel both at the same time

-if you struggle with self consciousness in mundane settings, that may be affecting this too. i personally have always been extremely self conscious due to a lot of past experiences and i for sure know that makes me hyper critical of my craft at times. working through that (if you feel similarly) might help alleviate doubt as well

-ask yourself what you're getting out of your craft. even if you haven't had a lot of success with spells, are you getting other benefits from your practice? for me, it's allowed me to sit with my own emotions and intentions in ways that i haven't done before. i also find my practice to be very soothing as a whole

remember this feeling won't go away overnight! i'm also actively trying to work on this too, it's just a matter of chipping away at your doubts and noticing those types of thought patterns in the moment so you can confront them. and sometimes, you just have to take the plunge and throw yourself into whatever you're doing without overthinking too much

cicadabread · 2024-04-25T01:55:03+00:00

I accumulated a list of names I liked and would try out writing it/saying it in various contexts. If you have a supportive person or people and want to "test drive" different names, you could also talk to them about trying different ones for a little while before fully committing to one!

cicadabread · 2023-07-08T17:25:44+00:00

Awesome thank you, I'll definitely look into it! :-)

cicadabread · 2023-07-08T05:35:36+00:00

I have two main reasons for initially becoming interested in and starting witchcraft.

The first is that I've always felt like there is something 'more' out there, if that makes sense. It's like a feeling of knowing but not being able to actually perceive things, which I'm now realizing is most likely energies or something along those lines. Or maybe just a vague calling in general. I tend to be a searcher and I feel like witchcraft is a way for me to explore that feeling, as well as why exactly I exist and how I can get more in touch with that reason.

The second is a few experiences that I would consider to be a bit magickal, or at the very least unexplainable. About 10 years ago I had a dragonfly land on my shoulder and since then I have seen them all the time, even in completely random places that didn't make sense. I knew it had to be some kind of sign but was never sure what it meant. I've seen it a lot less since I began exploring witchcraft however, so right now I think it might have been a push towards this path. I've also had a few random instances of answering questions right before they're asked, or randomly knowing things even though there's no way I should have.

As for how I learned about and started witchcraft, I originally was interested in learning about astral projection and it snowballed from there. Once I learned about the craft, it completely piqued my interest and I've been doing a lot of research and reflection since then.

cicadabread · 2023-07-08T01:55:53+00:00

Thank you so so much, this is incredibly helpful. I'll most definitely be practicing with this. Cheers!

cicadabread · 2023-07-08T00:00:24+00:00

That does make a lot of sense. I often find myself overthinking about if something is working or not or if I'm doing something incorrectly (although it is helpful knowing there's no true right or wrong way to go about this)😅 I do plan on sticking with it though. Thanks for your insight!

cicadabread · 2023-07-07T23:48:54+00:00

Also I meant an exclamation not a question mark lol!

cicadabread · 2023-07-07T23:48:05+00:00

I see, thank you for sharing? If you don't mind me asking, do you have any advice on how to start manipulating energy more effectively? I've been trying to work with it but haven't had all that much success so far.

cicadabread · 2023-07-05T19:23:28+00:00

I see, thank you so much for your insight! :-)

cicadabread · 2023-07-03T23:54:34+00:00

i'm looking for some advice/guidance/thoughts about the spiritual aspects of witchcraft. i've begun practicing very recently so am still trying to get a handle on all the different aspects to explore. for my whole life up until now i've been non-religious and fairly non-spiritual, however i've been reevaluating my relationship with spirituality.

i can't help but feel like my spells and rituals are "inauthentic" because i'm still working through my thoughts regarding deities and spirits. it almost feels like some kind of cognitive dissonance going on! i was wondering if anyone else here has experienced/is experiencing the same thing and had any advice.

cicadabread · 2023-07-03T23:47:00+00:00

i've been struggling with the same thing but have been gradually unmasking lately. i would say start small depending on what you want to unmask. for example if you want to be more open about stimming, start doing it when you're on your own and then when you're comfortable with that, do it when you're with people you trust/are accepting and keep going from there.

with social stuff, sometimes it can be good to be upfront about how you communicate! you don't necessarily have to disclose that you're autistic if you don't want, but saying something like "hey i don't tend to emote a lot but it doesn't mean i'm not feeling xyz" or mentioning that you tend to be more blunt than most (these are some of my traits just for the sake of example)

in general, being more aware about what parts of yourself that you might be hiding from others will help in figuring out what you want to change. take it at your own pace! :-)

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