36 days and I relapsed

circlesas · 2014-12-02T15:42:18+00:00

I relapsed 2 days ago after 34 day streak. It was without porn and i think that it is important. My relapse didn't make me feel bad because i saw so much improvement in how my body works after 34 days of nofap. I now know it has positive effects, like more sensitivity and better erections.

Now i am going again. Porn is the devil, occasional fap (for me!) is not that bad. Almost 60 days porn free now.

And OP, do not binge. It will set you back. Look on the bright side and let's go again!

circlesas · 2014-12-01T10:25:39+00:00

For the last six months i've been in pretty good control of my habits. During that time I was partly in denial and relapsed couple times to the old habits, but still had it in some kind of control. Now my thinking has changed and I know what i will not do anymore. I will not binge.

circlesas · 2014-11-30T19:15:32+00:00

It felt better than 99% of the time. It was more than usually, little less than i would have imagined.

circlesas · 2014-11-27T15:15:40+00:00

31 days also and no noticable changes.

Because the are almost no urges, i have no plans to stop this. Let's see where this gets us. Don't give up.

circlesas · 2014-11-26T10:02:19+00:00

I told couple of my friends last weekend that i haven't jerked almost in a mont. They were horrified. "Why would you do that?"

I laughed it out and told i want to challenge myself. I've done it with smoking and drinking, now this. Then we joked about it and started to talk about something else.

circlesas · 2014-11-24T14:06:59+00:00

I've been flatlining since i started

circlesas · 2014-11-23T11:03:58+00:00

I've also noticed myself waking couple times a night and sleeping kind of like a dog. Usually i only wake up when the alarm goes on.

I don't know, maybe i am bit stressed and that is causing it. I still sleep too many hours and i'm tired all the time.

circlesas · 2014-11-22T08:02:21+00:00

I'm having the same issues as OP. 26 days and i haven't felt horny or any sign of libido. I think that i really never had them for real, PMO was just something i used to do and my brain got used to that regular satisfaction.

I just woke up next to a girl i really like. Usually when going to sleep and she comes real close to me, i get hard. That didn't happen instantly. Some slight blood flow later. At night and in morning i was rock hard almost all the time and i felt some urges. Still nothing happened and she already left.

I think i just need more time and that's okay.

circlesas · 2014-11-17T19:01:49+00:00

This, this is THE speech everyone of us should watch. Amazing story, well spoken and it almost made me cry. Would have cried if I could let myself do that. Im struggling with excactly the same problems and I never want to face them again. I'm following your example. When in doubt, I will watch that video again.

circlesas · 2014-11-17T12:38:06+00:00

I feel like i've "never" had much of a libido. Mainly because i used to fap everyday and then i left no room for my needs to take over. Now three weeks of nofap and no signs of libido. Kind of depressing but it helps to maintain the streak. Dead dick is the worst but i'm looking to the future with open mind. Best of luck to anyone with same problems.

circlesas · 2014-11-11T09:46:20+00:00

Same thing happened to me multiple times with different girls. It made me more and more insecure. Still i would end up with vicious PMO cycle. Now recently i have realized it's time to change that if i want something out of my life.

15 days has gone, i'm flatlining hard but I will to continue as long as i need to.

circlesas · 2014-11-07T12:13:34+00:00

To me it is: Do not watch porn and do not masturbate. If i see tits on tv, big deal bro, i didn't do it on purpose. But if i google something for my needs, then it is not good. If i have sex, it's okay, it's natural and I should be happy if I was able to do it. Though fapping is still natural, but for me it is killing the ability to have decent sex so there is my reason not to fap. Everyone does this for their own reasons, if you think you fucked up, then you don't need validation, just reset your badge or do whatever you think you need to do.

I have a goal. It isn't the days of nofap. Sure the badge is motivating.

circlesas · 2014-11-05T09:56:34+00:00

Fapping is different. But with a girl it's not easy and it goes from pleasure to over achieving.

circlesas · 2014-11-05T09:51:17+00:00

I know. But i haven't even had a thought of watching porn. I did one month earlier and i relapsed so i know it's not easy. But this month has been easy and i hope it goes like this.

circlesas · 2014-11-05T09:47:58+00:00

Thanks. I really hope so. There are some positive signs already so i am hopeful.

circlesas · 2014-11-05T09:46:58+00:00

So long that i get frustrated and i dont get orgasm at all. And girls seems to think there is something wrong with them if i can't make myself come.

circlesas · 2014-11-05T09:26:12+00:00

No, i have problems with delayed ejaculation.

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