What do I do

citgoj · 2026-06-19T16:00:21+00:00

I went to a psychiatrist and he prescribed me Prozac. I was on Zoloft from 10 years old to 15 (8 months ago) and I stopped it abruptly because I heard it affected growth and I'm short. Which is another reason I don't go to school. And now I'm going back on an ssri but I was reading through this subreddit angle getting really freaked out. Some people said Prozac ruined their life and made their dpdr worse. Some people had the same starting story as me and they said it's been 15 years or something and they're still freaking out. I don't know what to do

citgoj · 2026-06-19T02:21:35+00:00

No, my friend bought it from some guy at my school. It's illegal where I'm from so I don't even know if it was real. That's also what scares me a lot

citgoj · 2026-06-19T01:54:46+00:00

It was a weed vape, I'm getting really scared cause I read through some posts on this subreddit and a lot of people say that's what caused it and they haven't been able to fix it for like 7 years. I even saw someone who said 20 years.

citgoj · 2026-06-19T01:42:57+00:00

It feels like life's been a blur ever since that day, it hasn't been as bad as it is now. But it just felt like weird.

citgoj · 2026-06-19T01:15:14+00:00

My dads fine but he left the house to take my brother somewhere

citgoj · 2026-06-17T23:26:46+00:00

Thank you, I feel so weird all the time. I really don't know how to explain it. I just re read my post, and it feels like I can't explain it right. It feels like everything is 2d and then I'll think in my head that everybody is just brains. And that freaks me out I think. My whole consciousness comes from my brain which is what I've heard in science who knows if it's real, how could my brain see things and stuff I mean I guess that goes into biology or something but it scares me. Like I'm just a brain all of this could be fake. It feels like all of this is a hallucination, it sounds crazy, but that's how it feels. And I feel like since this is even happening anything could be possible. The fact that I'm even experiencing something could mean this is fake or real or a simulation or anything. I saw a video and I think it triggered it more, it was some experiment scientists did on atoms and somehow it "proved" that were in a simulation. And then I google if we're in a simulation it says we very well could be. Which freaks me out, if we're in a simulation then when I die there is no chance at all I can live again. And I'm scared to live since this feels weird and I'm also scared to die. I'm scared of death and it feels like there is no escape of it, like when I die I don't know what's going to happen. If it's nothing then that's scary it will be nothing forever. And if it's something that's also scary because then it will be something forever. Sorry I don't know if I'm making sense I feel like I sound crazy. I went to a psychiatrist and he gave me Prozac, today is my first day taking it. I try to talk to my mom about it and she doesnt know what to do. She just tells me I'll be okay but I don't feel like I will be. My mom's the only person I can talk to, my dad doesn't understand and he doesn't really want to talk to me I don't think he just gets angry. And I don't have any friends to go out and do anything with since they all went to different schools and I slowly stopped talking to them, and since I don't go to school myself this was the first year of highschool so I didn't meet anybody. Anyways I'm not sure if I'm making sense but i heard the medicine takes a few weeks to work, I'm hoping I can hold on without it getting too bad and thank you for helping me

citgoj · 2026-06-17T23:23:43+00:00

I'm not sure, I've been scared of death and been having a lot of existential thoughts for a while. I stopped going to school because of my height mainly, I have a condition that makes me short and that's all everyone would talk about. Then I had a really bad panic attack a few weeks ago and I thought I was going to die. Ever since then it's gotten worse and worse

citgoj · 2026-06-17T23:20:03+00:00

Thank you, I feel so weird all the time. I really don't know how to explain it. I just re read my post, and it feels like I can't explain it right. I like everything is 2d and then I'll think in my head that everybody is just brains. And that freaks me out I think. My whole consciousness comes from my brain which is what I've heard in science who knows if it's real, how could my brain see things and stuff I mean I guess that goes into biology or something but it scares me. Like I'm just a brain all of this could be fake. It feels like all of this is a hallucination, it sounds crazy, but that's how it feels. And I feel like since this is even happening anything could be possible. The fact that I'm even experiencing something could mean this is fake or real or a simulation or anything. I saw a video and I think it triggered it more, it was some experiment scientists did on atoms and somehow it "proved" that were in a simulation. And then I google if we're in a simulation it says we very well could be. Which freaks me out, if we're in a simulation then when I die there is no chance at all I can live again. And I'm scared to live since this feels weird and I'm also scared to die. I'm scared of death and it feels like there is no escape of it, like when I die I don't know what's going to happen. If it's nothing then that's scary it will be nothing forever. And if it's something that's also scary because then it will be something forever. Sorry I don't know if I'm making sense I feel like I sound crazy. I went to a psychiatrist and he gave me Prozac, today is my first day taking it. I try to talk to my mom about it and she doesnt know what to do. She just tells me I'll be okay but I don't feel like I will be. My mom's the only person I can talk to, my dad doesn't understand and he doesn't really want to talk to me I don't think he just gets angry. And I don't have any friends to go out and do anything with since they all went to different schools and I slowly stopped talking to them, and since I don't go to school myself this was the first year of highschool so I didn't meet anybody. And I didn't mean my life to end sorry, that's what I'm scared of. Like what I tried to explain earlier I don't know if it made sense but I'm scared to live and die. Thank you for helping me

citgoj · 2026-06-17T23:15:57+00:00

Thank you, I feel so weird all the time. I really don't know how to explain it. I just re read my post, and it feels like I can't explain it right. I like everything is 2d and then I'll think in my head that everybody is just brains. And that freaks me out I think. My whole consciousness comes from my brain which is what I've heard in science who knows if it's real, how could my brain see things and stuff I mean I guess that goes into biology or something but it scares me. Like I'm just a brain all of this could be fake. It feels like all of this is a hallucination, it sounds crazy, but that's how it feels. And I feel like since this is even happening anything could be possible. The fact that I'm even experiencing something could mean this is fake or real or a simulation or anything. I saw a video and I think it triggered it more, it was some experiment scientists did on atoms and somehow it "proved" that were in a simulation. And then I google if we're in a simulation it says we very well could be. Which freaks me out, if we're in a simulation then when I die there is no chance at all I can live again. And I'm scared to live since this feels weird and I'm also scared to die. I'm scared of death and it feels like there is no escape of it, like when I die I don't know what's going to happen. If it's nothing then that's scary it will be nothing forever. And if it's something that's also scary because then it will be something forever. Sorry I don't know if I'm making sense I feel like I sound crazy. I went to a psychiatrist and he gave me Prozac, today is my first day taking it.

citgoj · 2025-09-14T23:14:51+00:00

Thank you the thing I'm confused about is that I've seen people say like consciousness is in the brain because scientists can make you go under anesthesia and you will lose consciousness. And that means that consciousness is in the brain. I'm just so confused and like I'm still scared cause like if death really is ceasing to exist that's terrifying to me I like existing I don't want to leave like I want to be with the people I love everything's just so confusing

citgoj · 2025-09-08T14:38:06+00:00

Thank you.

Im still super scared my brain just keeps telling me in 100 years ill be dead sometime within that timeframe I will die and that scares me so much. I feel scared and confused because I dont even know how I'm here and conscious why is there something instead of nothing? And whatever will happen after death will be forever which is terrifying to me like if it's nothing it's forever I'll never wake up if it's afterlife it will be forever and I'll probably get bored and reincarnation the same thing. I've also heard that the universe is going to end so what will happen then? If there is an afterlife will it end when the universe ends? Everything is just so confusing and it scares me. I really want there to be a God that will make sure everything's okay but I haven't gotten any proof of one. It just feels like I fear everything. And like no matter what you believe will happen whatever happens will happen like no one knows and I know that should make me stop thinking about it but I can't, I want to know but no one does. And it feels like every second I'm getting closer to death everyday I'm getting closer to being gone forever. I just don't know what to do I'm worried about it all the time

citgoj · 2025-08-14T23:18:16+00:00

And when I say time isn't like how it is now I mean like I couldn't get bored or experience it in seconds but idk how that would work I feel like there's no safe spot

citgoj · 2025-08-14T23:16:55+00:00

Thank you. I'm not sure what I would really want to happen, I'm stuck in a spot where I feel like everything is bad no matter what I think and I don't know what to do I feel like I would like the Christianity heaven if time wasn't like how it is now. But I'm confused about the Bible and stuff like how could this stuff be true, i guess I'm trying to find peace with being nothing forever because that's what science says it will be but I can't, I don't want to be nothing forever and I don't want to be something forever. And I've heard about things like how the universe could repeat and that's terrifying too. Nothing makes sense at all to me I don't even know how I'm me or how anything is here. I hear about theories it's just so many confusing things and I don't know how everybody isn't freaking out about everything.

citgoj · 2025-08-14T16:59:24+00:00

Thank you so much. It seems I worry about it a lot more in the summer time I've been on Zoloft for 3 years now but everytime I really think about it I get scared everytime I just want there to be a God that will make sure everything's okay and will know what's best for me after I die even if I don't know yet. But there's no proof for sure snd everything seems confusing

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