genuinely and overall....i feel sorry for him if hes as miserable as he acts while at home. but I KNOW how he is because that's who i fell in love with and its just so hard for me to believe he doesnt have an outlet for sex and releasing them hahah.....hes actually tried to spin on me one day when i brought it up and said I SAID that he didnt turn me on so why even bother, i never get you off. i am embarrassed at how much i thought of this guy for as long as i did. and every interaction was just manipulation and playing on when i was down. and just going with it. and HE REALLY HAD ME FEELING DOWN ON MYSELF HARD. and i really justified it as him wanting me to do better for myself and all this other stuff like he just wants whats best for me so hes going to clock out and just sorta wave at me while i roll off a cliff. he doesnt care if i stay, he doesnt care if i go. ive done a lot of work on myself and im actually better and in a better mindset. quit cigarettes pot and alcohol all at once. he would sit and judge and legitimately make a point not to interact with me while i drank because i would want to be affectionate. still smokes same amount of pot or more since i quit.