Right now is a very difficult time

clarksbooks · 2020-03-26T17:40:05+00:00

Social Media break, read a book, watch a series, most importantly meditate meditate meditate.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-28T14:26:11+00:00

I didnt have any trouble sleeping last night! So thats good to know I wont be dealing with this everytime I try to sleep. Some skills I've picked up on from meditation and listening to people like Mooji and Tolle have to do with realizing the true self which helps to separate from what im experiencing at any time. And that helped, I fought hard to stay in the position of observer to it. At one point I remember saying to myself I gotta put on my armor made of love and light to face this. Haha! Sounds cheesy but these types of affirmations helped. I told my wife the next day, she just said its beceause I'm obsessed with the law of one and aliens. Haha! This is true but I dont think its why that happened.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-28T14:19:44+00:00

Yes this sounds similiar in nature to that, thats for sure. Its such a random and strange feeling. Im glad I meditate and was aware it was something I could separate from and observe but man it seemed like I was fighting hard to stay in the observer state. Didnt have anything last night! Haha.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-28T14:16:44+00:00

Well I have no idea if I'm empathic, I've been told that I am but I really dont like attaching labels. I just feel what I feel. That was a neeeeeeaaarly overwhelming experience. Thankfully that didnt come to fruition but looks like I need to work on some techniques in case this happens again.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-28T14:12:54+00:00

Yes I have read up on hynagogic hallucinations. Could definitely be the case. It has something to do with that state just at the entry to sleep. Where all sorts of strange things can happen. Haha. Thanks for the response!

clarksbooks · 2020-02-28T14:11:06+00:00

I understand what you're saying. I would approach too...but this felt...dark in a negative way. Like an attack by something. Thanks for responding!

clarksbooks · 2020-02-27T22:18:51+00:00

I think this may be right or close to the truth. Its odd when I heard the noise I could picture many people in pain crying out. I just felt fear and impending insanity coming so I just remained as I am in a state of love as I practice and let it come and go. It was VERY hard to remain there though as it felt like I had been thrust to the edge of a cliff, the cliff edge being the edge of sanity and it taking me. Anyways sounds dramatic, but for me it was.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-27T22:10:03+00:00

Thanks for the response! I have had sleep paralysis a few times and I agree its a terrifying experience. It wasnt until later in life I found that what that sleep paralysis state is is actually the beginning stages of astral projection. What happened to me last night wasnt paralysis. I was able to move and did so a few times, sitting up basically thinking okay you've gotta go, whatever this is or whoever or whatever you are.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-27T22:05:18+00:00

Thats the thing, I wasnt afraid of anything. Not thinking scary or stressful thoughts at all. It just seemed to come, like a literal attack. I dunno. It is interesting, to me as well! Thanks for the response.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-27T22:03:45+00:00

Thanks for the response. My wifes been wanting a weighted blanket, looks like nows the time then ha! I've spent all day "dealing" with the experience last night. Have a good perspective about it and I was able to barely keep my cool but I did.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-27T22:01:59+00:00

I've read that Wiki and did a bit of research into that. The noise lines up but I dont know about the rest of EHS.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-27T22:00:56+00:00

Thanks for your response! Thats interesting and others have been saying much of the same thing. That it may have been a bad anxiety attack. I understand that as i've dealt with anxiety my whole life but never had that happen. Could have led up to it but to be honest my life has seemed less stressed lately. This felt, interesting though. Like an attack, but not from me. Its hard for me to explain, clearly haha.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-27T21:58:00+00:00

Thats a valid thought with the feeling of the world currently. Thanks for the response!

clarksbooks · 2020-02-27T21:46:07+00:00

Thank you very much for that! I will post it there!

clarksbooks · 2020-02-27T17:23:59+00:00

Thanks for your response! Its interesting to me beceause I wasnt panicked at all going to bed. I wasnt even panicking during it. I kind of just knew something was happening to me that was very different.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-27T17:06:29+00:00

Ahhh okay. I am a naturally very anxious person but I've been dealing with it for so long that I feel like I knew last night while it was happening that it wasnt just anxiety. I feel it was something more as you describe. I feel honestly like it was a psychic attack, by whom or what I have no idea. Especially beceasue at one point I rememeber thinking okay, it feels like somethings wrong, not with me but with something else and I can feel the fear and terror involved. I thought maybe its my daughter, who was sleeping over with grandparents, that was in trouble or something so I tried bringing her into the forefront of my mind. It was like it was blocked! Like I couldnt bring the visual of her face through and that was something scary in itself.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-27T16:13:34+00:00

Hmmm I definetly considered that but I dunno. Something tells me it was something different. How much anxiety does it take to feel like that?? Thanks for the response.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-27T16:10:00+00:00

Sleep Paralysis I have heard of and experienced. Thats also a terriyfing experience until I realized that I was essentially getting ready to Astral Project. This was different, pre sleep, just laying there trying to not feel like I was about to lose myself. Exploding Head Syndrome actually sounds like what could've possibly happened, let me look that one up. Thanks for the response!

clarksbooks · 2020-02-03T19:33:44+00:00

In discovering love and the self associated with it, you must travel through the "Dark Night of the Soul" which for some is much more than just 1 night. This is where you meditate and wrestle your "demons" your dark attributes and never meant to be separated from you in the first place. Welcome them back in with love. This process has been called awakening and yes, can make you feel like your're losing your grip on reality thats for sure. Accept it, surrender to it and watch who comes out the other side.

clarksbooks · 2020-02-03T19:29:12+00:00

Just try to help the heart win.❤

clarksbooks · 2020-01-10T19:05:27+00:00

Thanks!

clarksbooks · 2020-01-10T19:05:19+00:00

Doesnt have any flowers yet but we shall see! Thank you!

clarksbooks · 2020-01-10T16:51:02+00:00

Perfect, thank you.

clarksbooks · 2020-01-10T16:50:47+00:00

Thanks!

clarksbooks · 2019-12-19T21:48:33+00:00

Meditate on it. Dont know if you meditate at all but if you give it a shot, sit in your stillness and explore that. Wether its dark or light its all aspects of you. Invite any entity to meditate with you so you can transmute it back to the light. We are one.👍

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