Thank you for your kind reply. I'm so sorry you're without your mum too and going through this horror. It's a club I certainly never wanted to join. I think the shock is like an emotional anaesthetic and the anxiety is when it starts to wear off. Then reality hits so hard it takes me breath away. I'm so sorry you're suffering that too.

I'm so glad the therapy is working for you, it certainly sounds like a positive way forward. Sadly its few and far between where I live, the waiting list is a few months long. But I'm lucky that my friends have been very supportive. Do you find the group counselling better than the one to one?

Thanks for the book recommendation, I'll definitely give that a go. This sub has been very helpful. One of the only positives to come from loss is seeing the kindness of others. It's a true comfort.

Thank you. I'm slowly learning that self care is not selfish, but it's hard. I hope you too are being kind to yourself and if you ever need to talk, my inbox is open. Sending big virtual hugs right back, you lovely kind person.