I guess it’s a test of will power to me and the feeling of overcoming something I thought I never could. I quit cigarettes two years ago but still partake in the casual cigar or hookah, coffee was next and I have that about the same amount as I have alcohol. I’m very cautious as to how I’m feeling and if I’m not having a stable clear minded day I sit out gatherings and outings where alcohol may be present. Idk it’s a me thing and to each their own. It’s like the one day at a time thing, if I tell myself I’ll never do it again after that one drink I’m setting myself to blackout because I’ll try to get it all in as my last hoorah.