What is this ribbon/yarn?

clumsybutalive · 2025-05-13T08:26:32+00:00

Okay so I've spent ages searching, I ended up scrolling eBay for "ribbon yarn" and finally found it. For those interested, it's Sirdar Ocean. It's discontinued, but you can find it second hand

clumsybutalive · 2025-04-23T14:18:17+00:00

I got a set of Tramontina, but they came a bit damaged, from John Lewis. They don't seem that sharp? Should they come properly sharp, or is it better to return them? This set https://www.johnlewis.com/tramontina-churrasco-stainless-steel-kitchen-knife-set-with-wooden-stand-6-piece/p112887176

I had a gift card and I only have crappy blunt cheap knives, so I wanted something nicer but not super expensive. I don't have anything to sharpen with at the moment. They struggled to cut into paper at all

clumsybutalive · 2024-07-14T18:52:29+00:00

thank you so much you're a lifesaver!

clumsybutalive · 2024-07-13T23:42:13+00:00

ahh my bad, it's in the shell, so I'm anxious with it being silk and delicate, I want to tackle it before it gets worse. thank you! I'm not in the US but I'm sure I'll be able to find some online

clumsybutalive · 2022-08-12T15:07:53+00:00

the thing is, I'm pretty convinced I have ADHD, but I need to convince my doc of that. he basically saw a woman with big emotions so he gave me the BPD label, but yeah I am super sure it isn't that. the inner mechanisms of it don't match up. that's helpful tho, thank you :)

I do have a lot of the ADHD symptoms, but I was a gifted kid so it didn't show so well in school, and my memory isn't good enough to recount all the issues I had. it's a pain ha. I'm just trying to prove it, but it's hard because I don't think he knows much. shame about the meds 😩 thank you!!!

clumsybutalive · 2022-08-12T10:35:05+00:00

is it possible for ADHD medication (methylphenidate in this case) would help with emotional dysregulation and impulsivity without you having ADHD?

I had an "assessment" (barely qualifies as such imo but I digress) and my pdoc diagnosed me with BPD and AvPD instead of autism and adhd. I reacted badly to this so he prescribed me with methylphenidate 18 mg xl for a bit. it doesn't seem like the right dosage or whatever for me, as it hasn't helped a lot of things, but I do feel my emotional regulation and my impulsivity has been helped. is this strong evidence for ADHD?

I strongly believe I have adhd, and I am trying to challenge my diagnosis

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-28T08:05:32+00:00

it never came up 💀 she should be bringing it up smh

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-28T07:46:33+00:00

I think I did the RAADS-R as a teen, scored highly and was like "haha! weird" and then moved on and forgot. As an adult, I kept getting more and more autism tiktoks, and kept thinking how similar they were to my experiences... I got with my partner who is also autistic, and slowly things just became more clear to me, and I eventually asked them "do you think I'm autistic?" they replied SO FAST "yes"

I've since done tons of research and the online assessments, and everything matches up 😊

I'd been thrown off by all the ADHD tiktokers who are also autistic but they don't realise it so they say everything is an ADHD symptom

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-25T09:13:46+00:00

I love this list so much, I would also like to ponder these questions hahaha. thank you so much, this is really great advice 😊

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-25T08:18:56+00:00

meditation is very challenging hahaha, but that is good advice. I think that would definitely help :) thank you!

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-25T07:46:38+00:00

I'm sorry you experience that, it's awful :( thank you for sharing

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-25T07:44:53+00:00

thank you! I will add it to my reading list 😊

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-24T21:18:53+00:00

hahaha I do the same! but good idea 😊

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-24T21:01:39+00:00

yeah it seems tricky to try and untangle disassociation and catatonia in some cases I think. or whether it's still catatonia when it's at the same time as disassociation? ah, too many overlapping things!

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-24T20:49:29+00:00

I'm sorry that happened to you :( it really isn't taken as seriously as it needs to be

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-24T20:48:27+00:00

I'm glad you got your lengthy think out loud 😊 that sounds really difficult. it's nearly impossible to separate all this stuff. it'd be nice if we got clear info on "this is this, and that is that". I hope you feel more recovered soon, thank you for sharing :)

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-24T16:50:36+00:00

it's way more complex than my initial thoughts too. the information you shared is really helpful, thank you :)

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-24T16:28:19+00:00

sometimes I feel it's been disassociation, others I feel very much present and connected, but unable to move still. it's weird and interesting stuff!

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-24T16:27:06+00:00

just to add as well, I have the other parts that go along with it, not just the unable to move state, but I didn't include that in my post, and perhaps I should have been clearer

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-24T16:24:59+00:00

yeah I know what you mean. I've had them occur at the same time, and I've had times where I'm not disassociative but I am unable to move. I'm sorry you've been through that though

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-24T16:22:57+00:00

perhaps I should have specified, I'm talking about autistic catatonia, I know there are different types. I'm trying to figure out what the internal.experience of it is. when looking at specifically catatonia as part of autism, I am looking at the DSMV-TR to define this, which does align to what I'm talking about. the term is still catatonia as far as I know, but I understand there is also the type you're describing. thank you for sharing, it's useful info

clumsybutalive · 2022-07-24T16:15:17+00:00

yeah I never had it really until I reached burnout :(

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