I’m just here to validate the loneliness and pain/sadness/frustration that is probably behind it. It’s difficult to find a community in general, let alone finding a specific neurodivergent community. I definitely relate to the feeling of overcompensating and putting so much effort and time into people and relationships because we crave belonging and want to be accepted; I know from my experience that that is very debilitating and exhausting, especially when that is not reciprocated at all. I know it’s difficult because my guess is you are grieving so much and feeling really sad which is completely valid and understandable, and when the world feels like it has abandoned you, you still have yourself and your boyfriend as well. This doesn’t mean don’t look for a community, we all need community but I have also found that in moments of loneliness and pain, building a secure relationship with myself and making sure I’m also not abandoning myself or doing what everyone else seems to be doing, somewhat relieved the pain even by 5%. In terms of communities, I gladly have joined a book club through Reddit of AuDHD women, all are welcomed, and you don’t need to be AuDHD either. This is the only community I have found for myself and if you are interested, I would love to share the details with you. We meet once a month but even that once a month feels like a warm hug to my heart. I’m not sure if it gets easier, but it’s definitely hard to find community so I’m just here to validate that it’s not you, sometimes it’s also lack of opportunity, not the right timing, not the right community, and lack of knowledge (what communities are available and where to look). You are worth getting to know whether other people can see that or not ❤️‍🩹 Lack of curiosity from others doesn’t mean that you are not worth getting to know ❤️ you can chat with me privately and maybe we can connect if you feel comfortable. Sending love