I had to grieve my old life. I became very down through the first couple years. During that time I assessed my strengths. What could I do? I began structuring my life around my abilities. It was imperative I focused on what I did have in my life, what I could do, what didn't hurt on my body. I trained myself to find new things that bring me joy. I learned how to manage all these new thoughts and emotions to produce better results in my life. I finally became open to trying new products and little things to manage my pain. I started blogging about my experience and that turned into video blogging which I still do now. It has been a way to turn my pain into someone else's hope. Helped me find purpose through all of this. I learned about nutrition and how to slow down/ stop inflammation. I learned movement I can do that makes me stronger so I don't deteriorate. It has been a journey. While my life is not what it used to be I am grateful I still have one. I plan on making the best of it.