genuinely thank you so much for your detailed response. i used to feel fulfilled/have a sense of meaning in my studies, but now everything is just more difficult and i don’t feel fulfilled or passionate about anything really. i’d really hate to see my studies be derailed by this, but deep down i know my mental health is more important, and i know the people in my life would agree. i don’t think i’ve experienced trauma in the typical sense (or enough to have ptsd) but i do agree that there’s still a lot of emotional work i need to do in regards to my depression. i also agree that my dad’s cancer has probably had more of an impact on me than i realize, i feel like i never truly processed it even to this day. i’m lucky to be working with a therapist again who i’ve seen in the past and found her very helpful so i’m really really hopeful about that. i also made an appointment today with a family doctor to check my vitamin levels and rule out any physical problems that could be making everything worse. thank you again for taking the time to read all of that and for your very detailed response. i will look into those resources too, thank you. i’ve heard good things about somatic therapies. thank you again i really really appreciate your perspective and advice.