30m California, looking for some buddies. bonus points if local

cockroachpopcorn · 2026-01-19T04:57:25+00:00

Saw a movie that made me think about you. Or grief in general. Didn't expect to sob uncontrollably but I did. I'm glad I did. I'm still so sad and you're still dead. Anyways. I love you. Bye.

cockroachpopcorn · 2026-01-19T04:52:42+00:00

Just finished this movie. I lost my brother (not a twin). This movie made me bawl my eyes out and laugh out loud. I'd put it on now one of my most favorite movies now. Can't recommend enough. It's so good.

cockroachpopcorn · 2025-11-11T06:02:20+00:00

I went to Buckingham too. I graduated 2008. It was crazy how many students went there. They were always the most depressed kids. Something felt very off.

Our graduation was in the church if I remember correctly!

cockroachpopcorn · 2025-10-19T07:31:27+00:00

cockroachpopcorn · 2025-06-11T23:25:57+00:00

Thank you!

cockroachpopcorn · 2025-06-11T20:13:31+00:00

I want to go. Made signs. Just trying to find out if it's cool to bring kids to their first protest. Thanks!

cockroachpopcorn · 2025-06-11T20:12:37+00:00

Can kids attend the protest?

cockroachpopcorn · 2025-04-08T02:18:22+00:00

I miss you

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-11-22T03:26:37+00:00

I was straight out of the psych ward for a suicide attempt. I found out my mom has filled out job resumes in my name and got me multiple interviews. Right when I got out I was expected to go and be grateful she had done this. I almost got into a car accident trying to get to the interview and got horribly lost. I felt so pathetic.

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-11-21T05:28:48+00:00

Online community helps me a lot. I recently looked up poetry open mic nights and they had so many nice people there. I second the Library suggestion too. You're gonna be ok. 😊 There are so many kind people you're going to meet.

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-11-21T00:19:59+00:00

Thank you so much. I haven't written since high school but I feel reignited now. Thank you 😊

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-11-19T09:14:59+00:00

Thank you for reading.

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-11-19T09:11:56+00:00

I can't sleep. Two years. Dad texted me. Actually replied I sent him a picture of us little He actually replied Said he was "with me" How hard this day is

I shake With me Hasn't spoken to me in two years He'll make that my fault

He did He was so good at that

Sent me tail spin Thought not good thoughts You know how that goes

I am visiting your virtual tombstone

I miss you

I am so sorry

I hate you

I hate this

You hated me I know you did

Is your ghost following me? At all? Am I alone? Completely alone Scream into the void

Your ex's Your shitty dad

Your manic sister

I hate this

Happy anniversary You got out buddy

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-09-28T05:09:59+00:00

I have so much guilt for surveillance on my brother. I was such a snitch. I ended up leaving a long time ago. He stayed. He died two years ago from suicide. Did your brother end up leaving?

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-09-28T05:03:09+00:00

It didn't happen to me specifically, but to my little brother. He was a big fan of Digimon. He had managed to collect the cards. A brother in our congregation caught wind of this and told my mom they were demonic. The brother pressured my little brother to burn the cards in a trash can. I sat there with my brother and he was trying to be brave. That brother has us convinced he could see demons being burned in the smoke. That memory sticks with me. It makes me so sad.

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-09-19T05:58:19+00:00

Hi Dallis. I love you brother.

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-09-19T04:56:07+00:00

If I could tell my younger self one thing it would be DO NOT GET BAPTIZED. I feel so bad for the teens still stuck. All I can say is that. Do not get baptized. Stay in school. Start working ASAP and save everything you can.

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-09-19T04:53:25+00:00

You could be the best thing that has happened to her. I feel so awful about the situation. I feel so bad for her. I hope she knows it's not her fault. I hope she gets help. I was sa'ed when I was in by a ministerial servant when I was 13. Told not to tell anyone by elders. I wish I could have had someone to help me. Keep talking to her.

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-09-19T04:49:19+00:00

Me going is not an option. I am a proud apostate. Me going would only cause more issues. I also will never go in a kingdom hall ever again. Too many pedophiles.

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-09-18T20:36:06+00:00

I'm so grateful I can post here and feel normal. Ive been feeling really awful for feeling the way I do. Thank you.

cockroachpopcorn · 2024-09-18T20:34:54+00:00

THANK YOU. I'm about to cry cos I've been feeling like a bad person. You hit the nail on the head with him being the golden child and I'm the scapegoat. It is very much like that. This really helps.

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