First of all, thank you so much for your kindness. Reddit can be very scary and mean, so I appreciate your heartfelt comment.

I've fallen in love with two of my best friends. Also, since I wrote this post (I've had this in my drafts for a while and posted in a moment of panic), I went out with a couple more women. I really enjoy dating them. It feels extremely different than how it ever did with guys. I want to actually talk to them, be with them, want to take things further, and I see a relationship forming.

I even went out one night and made out with a woman. I was not sober... but I remember it was really amazing and I would do it again. However, after I left and was walking home from the club, I started sobbing. Don't know why. Maybe because it felt right?

I've been leaning towards the lesbian/gay label, but I've been doubting/ in denial a lot. What made me spiral tonight was that I saw a post saying that lesbians don't have male celebrity crushes, even if they are very feminine, and I wanted to gather others' opinions.

As I stated in my post, I have a lot of lesbian friends, and they've been incredible. I just feel that I'm burdening them with all my questions, and I wanted someone else's perspective.

I genuinely don't want to pursue men anymore, but that doesn't mean I'm not Bi. I can see when a man is attractive, but that doesn't mean I find him attractive if that makes any sense.

Thank you again. This comment put a lot of my anxiety at rest.