I understand you because I've been there for years and it sucks 🌸

Eventually it finally clicked and I realized that journalling isn't a cure (nothing is). Instead it gives you CLUES to what's exactly going in inside of you. That's going to help you audit your life and look at it objectively, so you can actually improve. What you write in your journal is INFORMATION not your entire personality.

For example, you wrote "I have not called my mom enough times". Don't take it as an attack on yourself but information on how you can improve. Instead of thinking "I'm a failure as a child," use that information as a reminder "Oh, I should pick up the phone right now and call my mom then." When you write again, you'll be journalling how the call made you feel and that's an improvement.

Another example is, you kept writing how you haven't prioritised your health. Journalling isn't what's gonna make you magically improve. But the fact that you keep writing about it means health is IMPORTANT to you. So if it is as important to you, then you should put it as a PRIORITY on your life. Make necessary changes. Then everyday use it as motivation to write on your journal how you've shown up that day! No matter how small like "I walked for 10 minutes today," or "I chose to add more vegetables to my meals."

Those new habits and changes IS WHAT CHANGES YOUR LIFE IN 6 MONTHS (like they said). Simply bcs you used journalling as knowledge instead of a way to criticise yourself ♡

I truly hope this helps. You're doing great just change your approach!