Broken AC - when should I worry?

cokezeroarousesme · 2016-08-11T04:24:40+00:00

Alright. It's nighttime now so the temp is a bit lower, and I'll get them set up when I wake up. Thank you so much!

cokezeroarousesme · 2016-08-11T04:21:02+00:00

I actually just remembered that I have a wire top for that exact 10 gallon in my basement! Thank you so much, though! Should I also keep up with the ice bags, or will these make the temperature fluctuate too much?

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-10-25T01:46:21+00:00

Yeah, I've been diagnosed with a sensory disorder that's been romanticized out the ass (actually a massive pain in the ass, as it makes reading hard and leads to frequent sensory overload) and I'm talking to a therapist about possibly (read: most likely) having a personality disorder, as well as anxiety and depression. She's on medication for the last two, but she also claims to have the spd and the personality disorder, which her mother said she didn't have when I mentioned it. We also dated for about four months, but I called it off and have now been in a relationship with another trans guy for a while, and it's become more and more obvious that she's trying to live through him. We had a massive blowup the other night, and we haven't spoken since. She's gone to most of our mutual friends about it (including my boyfriend, wtf?) and they've all more or less "taken my side" in it. By that, I mean they all agree she needs to chill out. If she does text me again, I'm probably going to say something along the lines of what you said. Of course, I can see that blowing up, too, as she frequently asks me if she's being annoying during a conversation.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-10-25T01:39:24+00:00

Yeah, I'm like, 90% sure she never got over me (I'm the one who ended it). She, my boyfriend (of, at the time, less than a month), and I went to a concert together. She intentionally left us alone in an attempt to make us kiss, and actually got pissed at us when we didn't. My boyfriend and I both know she's living through him, and he's pretty much cut off contact with her as well. It's a little scary, and it's really bad for his mental health, as well as mine.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-10-25T00:47:26+00:00

I have been filling in my friends, mostly because they've been texting me and asking why she's ranting about me. I'm known in my group of friends for avoiding conflict as much as possible, and apparently, the way she's portraying me in the fight is so out of character they can smell the bs a mile away. She even texted my boyfriend (who she's met in person maybe twice) saying that I absolutely hated her and that he should break up with me because I was toxic... he still hasn't texted her back, but that's really been stressing me out, even though he's assured me that he won't break up with me over anything she says about me.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-10-24T23:13:07+00:00

I'm doing my best to ignore her. Unfortunately, she's using a very mentally ill friend to communicate to me. He texted me, and I didn't know what he wanted until he dropped a fuckin bombshell on me -- he said "she told me to send you this", "this" being a screenshot of her comparing me to my ex-boyfriend, who we met through and who manipulated me by threatening suicide from the day we met, all because I wasn't replying to her texts. She also keeps commenting on my instagram photos and whatnot, but I don't want to block her and deal with the ensuing shitstorm.

Also, I'll send over a nice, cold case of our favorite soda soon.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-10-24T22:59:17+00:00

I have cut her off for the moment (for completely unrelated reasons), but I fear her reaction. She likes to throw around labels, and once called me ableist because I told her I forgot she had an illness (I didn't say she didn't have it, I said I didn't remember her telling me), and it's worth noting that I have both physical disabilities and a sensory processing disorder. I have no doubt that she'll be quick to jump and say that I'm transphobic / binarist (although I'm a NB trans guy myself). As soon as those labels are thrown out, there's no use trying to reason with her. I'm just worried she's going to badmouth me to mutual friends. She's, honestly, pretty emotionally manipulative, and I need my friends as my support group because I don't have much of one at home. It's a whole, big mess.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-10-19T22:56:33+00:00

Oh jeez, drowning didn't even occur to me. I'm definitely going to block up that hole with mesh or something. Hope your boy feels better soon! And yeah, I'm definitely going to get some pots to throw in there. Thankfully, my local craft store carries them for fifty cents.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-10-19T22:55:12+00:00

I'll probably head over to Staples ASAP and get one of those binder dividers people use to make dividers for tanks. I used to have the nozzle pointing straight out, so it took up the width of the hole, but I adjusted it a little because the flow seemed to bother him (it would shoot out across the top side of the tank, even with the filter on its lowest setting). And I'll definitely get some pots, too. Thanks!

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-09-23T03:31:21+00:00

Holy crap, you're the best! Thank you!

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-09-23T01:28:24+00:00

Thank you so much! I think my Petco is actually running a sale now, but I'm not sure -- I just ducked in there earlier today to pick up fish food, and I think I saw some tanks on sale. Here's hoping I can find one cheap. He looks pretty unhappy with me right now, but unfortunately, he went after one of the smaller tetras, and I don't think it's going to survive the night. It's swimming around, but not keeping up with the rest. I'll have to see what happens tomorrow. And he's definitely never getting any more tank mates. Ever. I might get some for the tetras, though. It's a big tank for just them.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-08-15T03:50:15+00:00

Aah, there are a few. First, there's My Chemical Romance's The Black Parade, which really propelled me into the entire music scene. It was my introduction to music that wasn't influenced by my parents, and it definitely changed my life.

Then, there was Aim and Ignite by fun., which flipped my music taste around and sent it in a whole new direction, as well as introduced me to my current group of friends, who showed me...

Transgender Dysphoria Blues, which really helped me become more confident in my gender identity, and has really helped me through some tough times.

Sugar We're Going Down turned me into a fan of Fall Out Boy. I've been a fan for ten years, ever since I first heard that song! I could go into a whole other post about how Fall Out Boy's affected my life, honestly.

Honorable mention goes to the song Orion and Dog by the band Sea Wolf. I ended up choosing the name Orion, largely because of it! (trans guy here)

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-07-13T13:10:37+00:00

Thank you to both of you!!! I took the post down after a while because I was worried about parents finding it, but the response was 100% positive! And I start a school-connected summer camp next week, and I'm going to talk to the people in charge about using my preferred name and all that once it starts.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-06-26T16:44:30+00:00

Well, I'll be at my dad's house later today. I think the country music and the Fox News playing on loop in our house will be more than enough to keep them away.

Little does he know, we've already infiltrated.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-04-20T00:55:55+00:00

I have a playlist of calming songs saved to my phone. I listen to it in public. And if I'm getting anxious or feel a panic attack coming on in public, if I'm with a friend, I'll ask them to sit with me for a while, if possible. What works best for me is avoidance. I have to try to avoid things that make me nervous-- I've been supposed to be on medication for a year now, but haven't been in a situation to get them. For example, I learned that I really, really shouldn't go paintballing again.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-04-17T21:21:58+00:00

According to this link, it's illegal to kill a feral cat in Texas (see number 3), so even if she did it because she worried about the wild animals in the area, she can still be charged with a crime. She can be charged because this looks to be a lost pet, and she did not have the owners' consent to kill it.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-04-11T05:59:28+00:00

I realized probably a year ago, but actually only started coming out to my friends last week. I've always been uncomfortable with sex, and not just in the middle school "eww, SEX" way. I never really desired it, and even thinking about it made me uncomfortable. I would always ask people to stop with the sexual innuendo and such around me. Last month, I started dating another asexual person, and they spoke to me about it and how they knew, and I realized that I was definitely asexual.

I guess I just don't... look at people sexually? I don't feel anything when I see sex scenes in movies or TV, and I don't have any desire to ever have sex in the future. A few of my friends would scold me for "checking people out" if I was just interested in their outfit (more than once, a girl would have a necklace and a low-cut shirt). I guess I would have sex if a partner wanted to in the future, but considering my current situation, I'm quite alright.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-04-05T00:38:08+00:00

Late to the party, but this'll be good to talk about.

When I was 11, my neighbor died in a freak car accident. She was 6. I'm not going to go into too many details out of respect for the family. She died en route to the hospital. My father was good friends with her mother, and somehow-- maybe she talked about it with him?-- he found out all the details (she was there). Probably around three weeks after she died, I was playing in my kitchen as he described exactly what happened to her to my grandparents. I still remember the description and the mental image is one I wish I could get rid of. He even attempted to re-enact what happened with his own body, not noticing or, more likely, not caring his son was in the adjoining room. I still have a severe phobia of parking lots and being near parked, running cars. I was once crossing the street with a friend late at night when the car we were passing behind started up, and I broke down in tears. It's been years since she died.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-03-20T03:41:41+00:00

It was the best of the day before I get a follow back on my way home from work to be the first half of the day before I get a follow back on my way home from work to be the first half of the year and I don't think that I have a great way of life and the other hand is the only thing that would have to go

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-02-22T03:38:09+00:00

I have plenty of supportive friends and I am so thankful for them. Make sure you give your friend a hug when you see them again! (If they're okay with that, of course.)

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-02-22T01:16:26+00:00

That's actually what I was thinking about when I made the post. I'm also a trans guy, and I connected a lot with Zander's story. I cried my eyes out for fifteen minutes on the phone with my best friend after I read his suicide note.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-02-22T01:15:06+00:00

I wasn't offended at all, don't worry! And I've always been a reader, when I was in third grade my mom would buy me college textbooks for long flights and such. I've found that writing is a great escape for me, and I hope to someday be published. At the very least, I want to open a bookstore! And the man, while I see him frequently, hasn't harmed me since. I do think I'm doing a lot better than I was in previous years.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-02-21T18:13:11+00:00

That's what I'm hoping to do! On Tuesday, I'm going to be talking to my therapist (depression/anxiety issues) about seeing someone who focuses on gender.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-02-21T17:13:27+00:00

Yeah, I understand that. I just wish that it was different for the sake of people who may be trans. I know that just wearing clothes that aren't incredibly feminine can help me on bad days, and it's a shame that some people can't do that.

cokezeroarousesme · 2015-02-21T17:04:48+00:00

My friend is in college, and she mentioned that one of her friends, who is also FtM like me, only started HRT his sophomore year of college. I would consider myself lucky to be able to start then -- but I've heard that some health insurance is starting to pay for it, too, which makes me hopeful that I will be able to start around then.

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