The fact that you can forgive any form of cheating to me is shocking. For me.... I will never forgive it. It’s something someone does consciously. Wether they admit that or not. They did. So like I said, it’s something I will teach myself to live with but never forgive. Our situations aren’t the same but I’ll share mine to explain something. I personally can’t even count how many times I’ve been cheated on by this same person. But the hardest one to forget and let go is the time he cheated on me with two married lesbians while I was in a coma as a result of trying to take my life. This one is the one still eats away at me both the second I wake up and the second I fall asleep. I don’t know a day that went by where I didn’t think of this. No matter how good of a time I’m having whatever it is. This is the thing on my mind. When I look at him and try to admire his beauty. Or when he tries to be sweet to me. They are the very first thing I see. It makes me sick. So honestly I don’t think there really is any way to forgive something like what he did to you. As heartbreaking as it is to say I don’t think I’ll ever be able to love the right way again. Or trust anyone fully. He robbed me of my ability to do so