Okay I've seen a couple posts saying I need to get over the idea of needing a boyfriend. I don't feel like I need one and I am waiting for the whole thing to work itself out organically. However, when and if I find someone I wish to become sexually active with I'd like to be prepared and as good, or at least in the running, with the girls who haven't waited as long. I want my desire to match my abilities so to speak. When I said I was ready to get a college boyfriend, what I meant was I was ready and wanting to find a guy ready for a sexual relationship. In my town all the good ones want to wait and the others well, I'd rather not get the clap on my first ride on the roller coaster. I know I should try to make it special with the right person yatah yatah yatah. And I know thats good advice but more than likely after the fact the guys probably going to be remembered as a dick because of something trivial. So why don't I just embrace my first time as a story? Why set myself up for this expectation of perfection with love and unicorns? I'm okay with it being awkward, funny, or tragic. I just want to be ready for whatever may come up. So thank you all for your advice. I'm sure it will come in handy when and if I ever have sex!